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Finally Updating Blog: Updates On What The Hell Happen To Nizam After So Long..

2009-07-11T20:57:00.004+08:00

Finally Updating Blog: Updates On What The Hell Happen To Nizam After So Long..

First thing first, an update of all that had happened since he last blogged.

1) It was towards my final year exams.. So most of the time i did was to mug and mug and mug..

2) Then during the course of my studying and examinations, I had to get myself into trouble (injured myself) haha.. Not that i want to.. But yeah shit happens.. And due to my injury i had to defer my examinations for over 2wks.. Kinda sucks.. My hand was in pain and i cant write.. So this was the only option.. Not to mention becoz of my injury, i had to postpone my Graduation trip to Australia.. Damn it that guy who coz me all the snowballing pain.. One thing after another.. I had to pay a considerable amount for my injury (compensated) and a great amount for changing my flight dates for my trip! Damn idiotic drunkard ah beng..

3) And so then the examinations ended.. I flew off 2 days since my exams ended to meet the rest in OZ.. Finally a long deserved break (no pun intended) hah.. By that time my arm almost healed.. Another reason for not being able to update my blog.. (Nizam's and his excuses =p)

4) The trip was fantastic.. Backpacking all over Australia for a month.. (Thus another month without blogging) - another excuse- We went to cities: Perth, Melbourne, Sydney, Gold Coast, Adelaide. We visited places in all of these states: Victoria, WA, Queensland, NSW and South Australia.. Almost the whole of OZ leaving Tasmania and the Northern Territory out due to time constraint.. Need at least 2months to complete your stay in Australia!!
* Updates on the trip are available on Facebook!! Those who have my facebook cano browse thru the albums..
* What i love most about the trip? SURFING!! GOLD COAST!! SYDNEY!! I want go GC again!
* What I dont like? The chaos (strikes, protests, swine flu, etc) in Melbourne at the point of time when i arrived.. First impression counts.. Without all those Melbourne could be excellent!

5) While in Sydney.. The examination results came in.. Kinda sucks to be checking your result while enjoying yourself.. But yeah i graduated.. But no merit.. Kinda suck.. But kinda expected with all the setbacks i had.. Cant ask for more..

6) Its been almost 3 weeks since i got back from OZ.. At the point of time which i have forgotten that i almost had a blog until complains came in saying that it is time for me to update! Some even threat of removing me from their links.. Hahaha! Finally settling back in SG.. There no place like Singapore and after travelling for a considerable amount of time.. U miss home..

This is HOME.. Truly.. Where i know i must be.. This is where i wont be alone! Haha! National Day coming up!

7) Its time to do some serious jobsearching.. I was wondering should i got back to SCDF? (i miss firefighting, i miss the action) Heck, i even wanted to visit firestations in Aussie which i only did see from the outside and took photos of live fire fighting action.

Should i settle for what i always wanted to do? Flying.. But i have no confidence knowing friends getting rejected.. But who knows mine would be different right?

I also always see myself following the footsteps of my father.. If not aimed at doing miles better than him in his career! - Singapore Armed Forces, The Decisive Force or maybe the Navy or RSAF.. My younger sister got herself in and will commence training on 13th July.. An OCT in GUARDS SOMEMORE!! Shucks.. Im quite jealous of her..

Maybe i should just stick to what i have learned in Uni? -Bank, Finance? hmm..

8) On top of it all.. Im sure as hell am gonna miss schooling days.. Gonna miss SIM campus life, my classmates.. The people in canoeing, council and SLS..

2009-03-13T00:56:00.002+08:00

An Inspirational Video

I would like to share with everyone a video a certain someone asked me to watch to put me right back on track! Its quite inspiring i guess and the music.. Kinda have that strong determine sound to it.. Heh.. Well enjoy..

Thank you for the reminder to tell me to LOL -----> LEAD OUT LOUD! =D

2009-03-08T17:27:00.014+08:00

Missing My C....... - A Realisation

I have been missing out on my trainings.. And some times when i train, i just lose my motivation.. Slowly but surely you see the numbers declining.. And your motivation to bring It to greater heights just runs dry.. Never did i mention this but its getting to me now..

Im just afraid of what might become of it in the future.... Really hope for a bright one.. But seeing the commitment levels right now... I can only say one thing: Disappointment.. I do see ppl winning in competitions and everything.. Cants say that im not proud.. Im more than just proud of everyone who puts in that effort. But really, its not all about winning.. Its more of the love for the sport.

We are all big in the name of fun, friends and family.. A bond we have that I have fallen in love with.. Whenever there is a social gathering or some sort.. Somehow or rather ppl would be free... But when there are trainings..... sighz... I always have to carry the burden of the disappointments in the turn ups.. Its always the same bunch of us.

But still I have to do my part.. I love doing what i have to do! I love my sport!

I still have to conduct.. "The show must go on! Not just for me but for those who are present as well and set to make a difference together." I always tell that to myself. Set out what i wanted to do despite the lost in motivation to do so.. I have to motivate everyone, to perform even though i just feel like giving up..

I still have to smile and make everyone who are present smile and enjoy the training.. At the end of the day we do enjoyed it no matter how small the numbers might be.. I felt relieved that i have done my job onto myself and to those who are around expecting me of my role.

I always asked myself why is this happening lately.. What is going on?

Is the training too tough on everyone these days? Cannot wake up in the morning? Am i too slack on the discipline or there is no discipline to begin with? If i increase the discipline level will everyone listen? Will it makes things worst off?

Other instituitions seems to be doing it.. Should i do the same? I see the trainings other instituitions are conducting.. While i was doing my own occasional trainings, some times I crossed path with groups of ppl doing their routine.. a couple of which i saw Everyone was shouting.. Everyone was counting.. One particular group i remembered asking for more of what is given to them.. I just watched in envy.....

Can It ever be like that some times, i wonder.. But using force is a negativity.. You cant force ppl to come against their own will.. How to do it without being seem negative about it? Sighz..

Maybe everyone is busy with other commitments? Exams are understood but there are those who have exams and do turn up.. Hmmm.. Maybe its the mentality that weekends are burnt and due to commitments in weekdays, thus wanting the weekends free..

Maybe we set off on the wrong foot on what our objectives were and its time to re write the past? Maybe everyone have different expectations and objectives.. How to make them come together as one then?

I have tried so many things.. I have come this far.. But some things seems to change while others dont..

Maybe what we need is a coach - an outsider, a father figure to instill back the motivation we need and make everyone move..

And the scariest of the thoughts that i always consider to be most likely..Maybe its just me? Have I done something wrong? Where did i go wrong? A high possibility..

Yesterday, i almost just felt like going home after a few rounds. I was at my limit. I had almost wanted to give up and instead opted out for long distance to think it through.. I didnt execute my role at all yesterday thinking about whats going on.. And truth be told the past few weeks, i havent been really executing my role.. No one realised what was going thru my mind. Maybe there was one who did notice.. Hah.. Guilt overwhelms me when he kept encouraging me on yesterday and so we encouraged each other along the way.. If not i would have gone home.. hah..

I asked myself why am i trying so hard? What do i really get out of it in the end? Have i failed everyone? Is everything crumbling? And those who were around me indirectly reminded me of what i set out to do when It was first formed. After some time, now then i finally realised that i once had a purpose for designing the back of the singlet that gives us our identity.. My dreams.. My objectives.. My motto for myself and onto others i hoped to pass on..

"I will never stop loving my sport that i have for since i was in primary school.. And will keep the enjoyment and the passion running, in others alike. It is not to be troubled with those who are not present but to be concerned more of those who are. Doing things not just for me but for everyone who have shown their interest in the sport as well. No matter how taxing things will be, the circumstances we are facing or difficult a situation might get, as a team no matter our numbers, together, we will
Against The Tide of Challenge, Paddle Forth!"

And saying thanks to those who reminded me of this is not enough. And now im back together to lead once again..

That WAS what i set out to do.. That IS what im going to do now!

2009-03-05T12:03:00.004+08:00

Is He Really is Just Not That Into You? - The Exception, Not The Rule.

The starting of the movie reminded me of a real life story! I would want to share...

Remember how at the start the little girl was told by her mum that if a guy is mean to you means he likes you? Haha..

It happened to someone real close to me, whom i see everyday, whose name starts with N and ends with N as well.. Not to mentioned we share the same parents.. LOL

She met this unlikely guy when they were in primary school! And the guy always teased the girl and picked on her or at times bully her. It was hilariously cute at how the guy reacted to liking her.

There was this one particular incident i remember she telling me that someone poured drink over someone just for fun.. I think its the guy who did it.. Hahaha.. Just for fun!! What a weird way to tell her you like her... Hahaha!

Then there was even this diary or the so called biodata profiler thingy.. Those things we used to write about our names, DOB, likes, dislikes etc.... And then we pass around to all our classmates and friends for them to write so that everyone can remain in contact with each other??

Where we wrote poems, riddles, our secret crush and personalise our biodata page?? We used different coloured pens and markers, showing of our creativity and artistic talent (if there was any) Haha.

Remember those younger days of ours?? It was like THE Facebook or Frienster before the Internet age really comes into play!! Damn those were the days!!!

*Reminiscing*

So ya anyway this guy, he still keeps the book with him!! (I dont know where mine went to.. =p)
And in the book was prove of his monkey love to the girl and poems after poems written by his friend teasing him with the girl..

While i was reading it, i laughed my ass off! Some of the poems seems to be crude for a young teenager.. In a way it was cute and romantic to keep something for so long...

And eventually as if by fate (keept long story short), they met up each other.. And thats how i know of this book of his.. Haha.. The prove of the love.. And now they are together after a long time of "courtship".. Haha...

One of those Rules broken.. This turns out to be the Exception..

2009-03-03T12:58:00.006+08:00

Tune of the Month

MySpace Movie Posters

I was reminded by Ed of how lovely this music is.. Soundtrack from the Notebook - Our Love Can Do Miracles.

Its been awhile since i last listened to it. And the movie Notebook was one of the most interesting, touching romance movie i ever watched. Something everyone dreamt of love to be.. To grow old with someone right up till you are on your deathbed.. Something that everyone desires of having.. Something so sweet that it is unimaginable in reality.. Or is it?

I believe.. I believe that if one tries hard in a relationship and the love for each other is limitless, any hurdles can be overcome, any differences will be accepted. Love is not just bout loving someone or the companionship. Its about going through the hardships, bickering, accepting each other for who they are. If you Love that person, then your love for each other can do miracles! Now where is that other half miracle of mine? Are you here? Hahaha..

Thanks to Ed, i began to think about the person i was in the past.. The person that i had once forgotten. Now that i am reminded, kinda miss that old self of mine.. Hahaha!

Anyways, watched another romance flick yesterday with "Da Clique". This was just before i was reminded of the Notebook soundtrack.

"He's Just Not That Into You" was a fantastic movie to watch for those who are married, in love, just got out of love, looking for love, those who enjoys their bachelorhood or even if u r gays and lesbians. It doesnt matter as long as it revolves around Love.. hah..

It covers almost the whole expect about love in no matter wat status you are!! Be it if you are the RULE or the EXCEPTION! (hahaha! something that kept spining around the movie. i wont tell. so go watch!) It also becoz of this movie that inspired me to write wat i wrote before this.

A reminder to myself - to still believe and never give up!

And to Clarence to, there will always be other opportunities, there will be someone to like you bro! You just havent find the right one!

Investment test over.. Surprisingly not difficult, i tot i initially mite flung it. 3 more tests and 1 project to go~ Sian..

2009-02-19T22:32:00.003+08:00

A Likely Story..

I have this story i find over the internet interesting to tell.. And it keeps me thinking.. A LOT... Not that i have nothing to think about in the first place - like where that $400 bucks went to!! - AArgGhhhh! So anyway here it is... Heh..

Have you ever had that encounter where you set your eyes one someone and in you mind you go "WOW! Shes beautiful/cute/hot",and then that person also had their eyes on you for a brief moment?

Then there you started to think if there was electricity going between the two of you for that brief moment. And you were hopeful that there was.. At the same time your mind tells you that its all your wishful thinking.. Wishful or not, You still could not let that person out of your mind for that moment..

And just when you think you were out of that fantasy and got back to your own task of looking for a particular "Subject" that was entailed in your routine for the day, that "Subject" you happened to be looking for appears to be the same person that you laid your eyes on earlier!! Coincidence?? Yeah of course it is....

From there you started to get acquainted to each other and hmmmm you found out that both of you share a couple of similar interests.. Interesting rite? Yeap Interesting indeed for acquaintances.. For someone whom you just met.. And then the interest begins to grow....

Few days passed, and you begin to like that person more and more.. But you just wouldnt tell that person that you are interested to get acquainted more than just acquaintances but as friends.. Everytime you see each other.. You just say hi and bye... You never had the chance..

And when you had it, your heart got stuck in your mouth.. And you couldn't handle the situation.. And you made yourself look dumb.. Disappointing..

Months passed, and you still cant forget.. Are you in love or its just another crush? You compared yourself to that person, and everytime the more you compare yourself, you find that you might not be in the person's league no matter what similar interests you share.. You have never felt so stupid and clumsy in your life.. But whenever that person is around.. Everything seems to turn out that way..

You then decided to gave up on that person. And take it as a crush.. You moved on and you found someone new.. And so you have chosen to forget. And when things turn out bad.. You turn to seek that crush of yours again.. And the feelings rekindled..

More time has passed but you just never made the move.. And you are lost... Acceptance and rejection kept playing in your mind like an endless, soundless movie.. You are just afraid to make any move...

Have you ever felt that way? In this situation what would you have done? Cmon now.. I wan this entry to be interactive pls tell me what you think should have been done or not done... LOL.. Constructive comments are really appreciated!! I know a lot of you people are just reading my entries.. So pls this time say SOMETHING! =D i got tracker ok!! Hahaha..

PS. Dont ask me if its about me la... ZZZZzzzz.... If it was i would have already said its my story.... =D

2009-02-19T00:20:00.003+08:00

Schools Out For The Past 3 Days!! =S

And IM JUST GLAD I DO NOT HAVE TO DO SM PROJECT!!! WAHAHAHA!! =p

I did say that this semester my timetable is weird.. And school was out for the past 3 days after my two weeks break since CNY. I have alot of breaks in between my schedule... Its kinda nice but then again, i feel that its slowly killing the drive to study with so many breaks in between.. Sianz..

And project dateline is due in a months time and we havent even started with the lecturer officially discussing thru them.. Hmm... Oh well, we are gonna start ahead without the lecturer officially telling us what to do.. We kinda know what to do from the web portal.. The faster finish the more i can concentrate on MR500 race! Hah..

Been busy doing up videos and preparing stuff for Kayaking Star One Course.. Those interested can email to sim.canoeing@gmail.com.. Priorities goes to SIM students! Heh.. And we are open for recruitment!! I made the video fyi!!! hahahaha! Comments? =p But then again credits also goes to the CANOEING TEAM especially all those ppl with the cameras!! heh.. Here it is!

Ohh i also did say i wanted ppl to ask me out for a date on Vdae and email me their profile and such.. And guess what, to my dismay, no one did.. I was at least hoping for a few... oh well..... HAHAHA!

Now im gonna start something new when i blog. I will start to talk about any weird/peculiar/out of the world things i see around me, if i ever see one.. Then blog about it. Sounds good to me.. LOL..

Just yesterday, after we had our meal at Subway Clementi, i was rushing to the toilet.. And a weirdo kept staring at me in the toilet that i decided to go in the cubicle and pee..

It reminded me of time i was at work where an old man who was carassing my hands while i was wearing for him and his family - YES HE HAS TWO KIDS AND A WIFE!! - identification tags on their wrist.. After carassing me, he pat my back and gave me a back rub to say thanks! Like WTF... Damn touchy old man!! Then his wife gave me that annoyed look when i didnt do anything wrong.. I wonder what is goin on.. Why his wife didnt do anything.. Hmmm.. This kinda ppl.. I dono what to say.. Hah..

One last thing.. Facebook damn addictive can!! HAHAHA!!

Valentine's Day is coming

2009-02-13T11:55:00.006+08:00

Happy Vdae/Friendship Dae..

Vdae also happens to be my Ex's Birthday.. Can never forget.. Heh.. Everytime Vdae comes, im always reminded of her.. Wonders how she is doing after all these while.. Its been a long long long time since i really last spoke to her.. Oh well....

Its also been a year since Grandma passed away..

Somewhere in the Heavens i know she is watching me and everyone else... And we will be here always remembering her and praying. I miss her..

Today had a mini "surprise" celebration in school for our beloved treasurer.. Hah not much of a surprise though.. But it was fun planning bdaes sometimes..

And then this had to happen while i was walking around...................

My brazilian praia strap broke or rather gave way to wear and tear... Damn sad for something that cost almost 50bucks and its hasnt been a year of me wearing it.. =( Then Agnes had the bright idea of fixing it for me.. Haha! It seems funny but it was very innovative of her and i dont know how she managed to tie it back.. It looks good as new but with some pink ribbons dangling around it.. Haha..

But its good now! I guess.. Haha.. Have not tested walking around with it yet.. With superglue i managed to put it all back in.. =) Hopefully i can still wear it for another few months before i have to buy a new pair... Or maybe i should just stick to Teva flip flops just like the other canoeists are wearing! Hahaha.. Peer pressure.. Cheaper too! =p

Something i decided to write for the so called Special Occassion.. When one is emoing the muse starts working.. hah.. I dont really know what i wrote and i just write it down blindly.. but as long it made sense to myself..

For we are only humans we longed for The Love
We endeavour in search of Knowledge.
Through it all we find Happiness despite the Endless Pain.

Love, It brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
It brings hurt and you'll know you are alive.
It is something that you put your trust in.

In the union of love I have envied so many,
But it does not envy, it does not show, it is not proud.
In a supernatural minuscule that of the prefiguring vision
The intricacy and complications that comes within a simple word
Of the Love that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
Failing each time still I never stop searching,
For the Love and Knowledge We as Humans longed for.

I have wished to understand the hearts of many.
To understand people of different walks of life.
Getting along is never easy but at least I’ve tried and,
Through their hearts I found Love and gained Knowledge.
Through them I have fallen but only grew stronger.

I have wished to know why the stars shine.
Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Where realism strikes when fantasy heightens.
The cries of pain reverberated in my heart.

But still We Love like we never Love before.
Our thirst for Knowledge never ends.
Something that is in our nature
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.
This has been my life;
I found it worth living.

2009-02-12T21:01:00.010+08:00

Random

Finally i have begun to update my blog once again!

After a whirlwind of unexpected events, im finally out of most of them.. Kinda sad and at the same time glad on how things turn out though.. All these feelings mixed inside.. All so confusing.. Hah.. But life goes on they always say..

Anyways.. I have achieved one of my target that is to get at least a medal of SIM. And i am gonna try to get one more before i leave school! Frigging proud of the Canoeist!! Everyone did well! Next up MR500... How i suck at sprintings.. Heh..

School has been a bit stagnant nowadays.. Been having too many breaks from school.. Been enjoying holidays in the Weekend house in JB with "Da Clique'.. And there will be more short breaks coming..PY already in HK enjoying herself now!! I wanna go travelling also.. Damn sian, coz it just made it worst since i do not have the mood to go to school recently.. But i have already made a promise to myself not to get my studies affected anymore.. New Year's resolution!

Was in the bus on the way to school today. While i was on the expressway, there was a TP on his bike zooming down the road and he was directing all the heavy and slow vehicles to take the left most lane. Just one point of his finger the vehicles immediately started to move in to the lane...

There was not a word being exchanged and yet everyone understood and obeyed... From my point of view in the bus, it seemed almost magical! He points, they immediately moved.. He points again, they moved! He is the King of the road no matter how small he looks on that bike as compared to the others.. Hah..

Ohh.. Damn Vdae is coming... And i have no date.. Anyone wans to date me out?? Email me la.. Pls include your photo and stats plus your contact number so that i can call you.. WAHAHAHAHA! Damn i sound desperate..... Singletons night seems better..

2009-02-10T12:47:00.009+08:00

Tune of the Month

Goodbye - Secondhand Serenade

It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry.....

Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe we're the same
But either way I can't breathe!
Either way I can't breathe...!

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way
I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything we've been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
Its time to say goodbye....
Its time to say goodbye...
Goodbye
Bye..........

Take my pain away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

2009-01-02T15:47:00.012+08:00

This New Year

Be warned: This is gonna be a bit of a long entry... lol..

2008 has been an enjoyable busy time of the year for me.. Every single day i have to do something and it always involves the school! Council events, gathering and parties.. Canoeing training competitions, celebrations and parties.. Classmates.. Damn fun but tiring..

That i felt that i havent got much time given to my Jackass bunch of friends.. Kinda neglected them.. Sorry brothers.. We should spent more time getting late nite supper again? This time we should explore other late night makan places la.. Haha... The "Babes" + EVSS Gang.. Very difficult to meet you guys too..

Neglected the JI-ans gang too.. It seems we are drifting apart much more since we started college and its worst when we entered Uni.. Still owes Ain a birthday gift...

And becoz of my busy schedules, i almost flung two of my modules.. And it has affected my GPA drastically from a 4.3 now it is lower than 3!!! Im gonna have to aim for all HDs this coming semester! My last semester..

Kinda sad to know that this will be my last semester. After all the friendships forged.. After all that i have partly contributed to the school.. I feel that i am somehow connected to SIM now and I do not want to leave the school...

SIM Canoeing is now 1 year old!! Happy Birthday to the club! Hope it grows and gain more medals for the school.. Kudos to the canoeing team! 1st Competition of 2009 coming soon this 11th Jan! The Singapore Canoe Marathon.. The schedule is tight but All the best guys..

Council.. My reign of Exco -ship has finally come to an end.. Still have some stuff i wan to hand over properly before i really lay my hands off.. Kinda still holding on to some stuff coz I kinda miss hanging out with my council cliques.. But it felt like since i stepped down, I've lost touch with the council..

2008 i've got the courage to tell people my deepest thoughts.. Hahaha..

Things dont last forever.. But memories does! Memories of 2008 that i will cherish.

Looking back at 2008... These are some of the photos that i have and i made it into a vlog..

Its called Reminiscing 2008.. LOL..

A very simple vid... Thank you all for the wonderful memories!! (even to those who are not in the vid..)

Looking forward to 2009

- Make sure i pull up my grades!

- Make sure i will win at least one medal for SIM

- Make time for friends whom i have neglected ( i hoped)

- Make sure i understands myself

-Get lucky! Hahaha!

- Be more happy than in 2008!

And lastly.. A new song for the new month.. In the new year.. Its called Memory by Sugarcult

Sugarcult Lyrics
Memory Lyrics

2008-12-24T03:13:00.007+08:00

Secret Star - Final Edited Version

---- Merry Xmas to all and a Happy New Year!! Was damn bored staying at home.. So i composed some stuff.. Yeap was at home in msia doing nothing... ----

Staring at the gorgeous smile on your face
Makes me weak, I fall silent and paralyze
As in my dreams that I can only create
For dreams like this is less of a fate

What a rush this is
This feeling that I feel inside
All I ever think about is you
It’s hard for me to hold back

I hope that you hear it
The only thing that resonates
This beating heart calling you out
For words I want to say to you fades.

Notice my presence, my love
Into the shimmering night sky,
I’ve been looking up, watching from afar.
These eyes gazing at the one in a million
The one and only, it’s you
You are my Secret Star.

So many words I want to say left unspoken
For you seemed so close, yet so distant
So many days and nights, has come to past
Nonetheless this heart still beats so fast.

What are the possibilities?
Would you feel the same way?
Do you ever see me like I see you?
Do you catch a breath when I see you?

I hope that you hear it
The only thing that resonates
This beating heart calling you out
For words I want to say to you fades.

Notice my presence, my love
Into the shimmering night sky,
I’ve been looking up, watching from afar.
These eyes gazing at the one in a million
The one and only, it’s you
You are my Secret Star.

I hope that you will
Notice my presence, my love
My Secret Star.......

Into the shimmering night
Watching from afar
My Secret Star.......

Gazing at the one in a million
The one and only
My Secret Star.......

---- I Dont Have The Courage To Even Start A Proper Conversation.. Sighz.. ----

Tune This Month

2008-12-08T23:46:00.006+08:00

"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"

A very nice song.. Reminds me of how i behaved when i was around my friends not too long ago...
Something that i cant let happen again.. Sorry for the person i became and that it took so long for me to finally change.. Who I am Hates Who I've Been..

Looking forward to a new change.. A new beginning! As spoken to Brian over msn.. Yeap i am determined! Haha! (I want my Samsung Innov8 too! Wahaha.)And even though it wont go as i want things to be, I will look on forward with a smile.. :)

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there.
That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line.
Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there.
Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again

'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus x2][Chorus]

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
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And Corrine May is singing two new songs "Pilgrims Journey" and "The Winding Path for Kavin Hoo's latest instrumental album. "A Moment In Time". Im sure after hearing her album "Beautiful Seed", these two songs are great even though she didnt wrote them herself! She is a great singer!! Reminds me of Sarah Mclachlan! Heck she is Singapore's very own Sarah Mclachlan! Haha..
Listen to them here: http://www.kavinhoo.com/AMIT/AMIT.htm

2008-12-03T16:21:00.080+08:00

Canoeing Post Race CeleBration and Canoeing Trip to JB!

Had our celebration at Holland V.. Went to eat at some expensive place considering the amount of serving.. Sushi Teh.. But the food was nice despite the cost.. But.. It still leaves me hungry again soon...

Me and my new partner Jason.. Hope we can clinched a medal in the next race!! We gonna push each other more now..
Kylie and her partner Pam.. Real Lesbian partners... : x
And Celebrated the November Babies Birthdays as well!!

Alvin, Junsheng, Sarah and Richards.. Making a wish. Wonder what was it.. Hmm

The tradition of picking out the candles with mouth.. First up to contaminate the ice cream cake was Sarah..
I wonder how much saliva she put into the cake..
Next is Richard... Bout to get ready to kill someone if his face is pushed into the cake.

And he came quite clean.. Boring...
Next is Alvin!
By the looks of it.. He must have left quite a bit of his mouth juice on the cake la... Damn..
Lastly, our idol!! Mr Chin Junsheng..
Now the cake is really contaminated..

But we all still eat the expensive ice cream cake that we bought!

They seemed to be enjoying the cake!! HAHA
Pamela unglam shot 1..
The group that was at the post race celebration..

Last few photos before some of them went off.. The rest headed down to WALA WALA!!
Its been some time since i went there.. It still has the nice band playing every time..

Jason... Everyone also he wants.. Guys included.. Wat a player...

Drinking waterfall..

They looking at it.. Amazed.. Especially JS.. Haha..

Drank until Sarah's straw melted.. Lol..
The Les couple..
The scandalous latest couple..
Clarence who did not drink much.. Was first to go.. Look at that face....

The next one to go....
After that Sarah's turn to get high..

Marcus and Richard.. With pose of finger in almost every pic...

I dono wat they are doing...

Yeap.. Jason finally showing it.. No more acting cool bout getting drunk.. Haha..
Somethings happened before this that should not be posted on the blog.. Haha..
Then JS was the last one to go...

Clarence... Clarence... So fast gone.. its not even midnite and we havent sing bdae song...

This idiot still acting cool even he is high....

The photo says everything....
See the couple in the background... Haha.. Something like that happened amongst the canoeist.. Cannot post on blog..

Im not drunk.. I didnt drink.. haha.. Im sober but i had to do a dare with my partner who was drunk..

Haha.. Pei Yu unglam shot.. She damn high i guess..
Singing bdae song to Sarah!

Clarence again..... -_-"

Sarah standing on stage singing along with the band..

The lead singer.. What a great show..

CANOEING TRIP TO JB CUM BBQ AND HORROR MOVIE MARATHON CUM SHOPPING

At my place in jb..

Reminiscing our childhood.. Damn fun!! playing at the playground.. Haha..

Ken injured his pinkie after some disasterous fingering incident.. WAHAHAHA..
The big guys of canoeing club..

And they not even drunk....

The Satay man... :)

The entertainers.. Their job is to eat n play dai dee.. ha..

All nite long.. Dai dee...

Some scandalous shot of JS and Ken..

Sarah is missing Eric... Aww.... So sad....

Jason posed for armpit shot... hahaha

And it happened to be my cousin's birthday!!
My nephew: Firwen Anakin!! Nice name eh.. All the gals were like saying so handsome.. So cute.. Of coz la.. Just take a look at the uncle can already....
And the Horror movie marathon begins!! All so happy at first..
And then this.....
Then this...
And then me.. Joining in the fun and pretend to cover my eyes.. :P
After the 2nd show.... One by one slowly enters the dream land...

Yeapp.. Me tooo.. Hahaha...

Sunrise shot...
After some hot ..... Hahaha..

Breakfast.. They just love my mums cooking!!

On the way to JUSCO!

Good food half the price as it is in SG.. How can?? All wan to eat go JB next time!! Haha..
Playing bishi bashi.. Damn funny all their psychomoto all sucks.. I was no exception.. Haha..

Some had to go home the next day... While the other half stayed over...

They decided to take the KTM instead.. and had to travel with......
....... A whole lot of freaking cockroaches in the train!!!
The other half including myself who stayed went to Danga Bay for some seafood..

Not fantastic.. But it was cheap..

It was a great outing.. We should do it again!! Next Trip on the 21st!! The Pengeran Trip!!

RUKR Prep, RUKR, Post RUKR

2008-11-23T21:30:00.013+08:00

RUKR Preparations, RUKR, Post RUKR

Im have since been very busy.. Activities after activities.. Not forgetting that i have been working as well.. So i havent been much of a blogger..

Well here is an update of myself.. For myself.. And those who wants to know whats goin on in my life...

Had my first marathon kayak race around Ubin which was 22km.. It was a great experience.. And i achieved my goal of getting at least a top 5 position... And so i have to give a treat to all the canoeing peeps... Haha.. I promised them that if i get top 5 i will treat everyone!The preparations was also quite tedious.. We had to make out own wind breakers.. And customize them.. I just love Pei Yu's one : KILL BILL!! Hahaha..

Busy at work.. OR just trying to look busy.. HAHA..

After all the art and craft done... I was too tired and slept on the road while waiting for our transport to come to transport the kayaks to Pasir Ris..

On race day itself.....

Im so hungry after the race... Surprisingly not tired.. Thinking about how well did i performed for the race.. Did i get top 5?! Will i have to treat the guys?? Haha..

I tot i counted i got 7th position.. But nope!! Damn happy.. If not for the Nationals.. I would have gotten 3rd.. Next marathon race, Nationals, you better watch out coz my target is now top 3!!

After the race, we went out to celebrate!! Mini celebration before the official one.. Heh.. Jun Sheng won top 3!! 2nd Runner up sounds better than 3rd.. Hahaha! And coz i achieved my target! Then we go visit our Sarah... If she didnt backed out from the race, she would have clinched top 3.. Coz i remembered her always being behind me of not more than 3 mins away during our rounds... She better be in the next race!!

Long Over Due Posts

2008-11-14T18:34:00.011+08:00

What was missed: Celebrated the September Babies Birthdays!

Went to Mambo.. It has been a long time since i went there la.. Haha. Was fun though.. Once in a while clubbing is fun.. This was the last mambo before exams. Im sure there will be more - like next wednesday... Post Exams celebration..

THEN A BIRTHDAY SURPRISE FOR PEI YU!!

Clara, Clarence and myself decided to drove up to her place and knocked on her door to wish her Happy Birthday!!

One of her many funny faces for the day.. It was her unglam day and donno how many bdae cakes she already had..

I finally get to touch a dog.. Pei Yu should be honoured that it is her dog that i am touching.. Cute eh?? The dog.. (NOT ME LA.. Hahaha)Just sit in my arms keeping still... HAHAAHAA!

Then I followed them to the so called famous teochew porridge. Doesnt look nice.. Maybe coz its leftovers.. I dono.. I cant eat them anyways.. Hah..

Then we went to Mount Faber...

I taught clara how to utilise her camera function and we played with the colour swap thing.. Damn cool function of a canon camera! I wan a canon camera!!!

Car courtesy of my Sister and Brother in Law.. Nice of them right!! Lol.. Can borrow the car again okie.. :P Lucky got the car if not cannot go out..

Then to Sentosa to make a fool of ourselves..

I played with the canon functions.. I think its damn cool..

Another one of those unglam shots of the bdae gal... Haha.. This is the most funniest of them all.

Bdae gal and her presents..

She took some time to open them up.. Newspapers after newpapers..

Its also one of those late night supper outings to parts of Sg.. We will continue roam the nights to different parts of sg now that exams are over! If we have the car..

EXAMS OVER

2008-11-08T18:16:00.005+08:00

Exams Are Finally Over!! And Tomorrow is RUKR 2008!!

Its been almost a month since i blogged. Here I am blogging just to try to keep myself awake. Since the exams started, i always have a very bad habit of having naps in the late afternoon and then i wont be able to slp after that until 6am the next day!!

Time to change and cultivate a good sleeping habit since exams are over! Furthermore i cant afford to sleep no later than 11pm today coz tomorrow is the ROUND UBIN KAYAK RACE (RUKR)!!! MY first ever kayak marathon race! Hahahaha!

Im damn nervous about tomorrows race... I havent been training good enough to catch up with the Captain. All our trainings all are affected coz of exams.. Sucks like hell.. Even the Capt himself says he is not on form.. Even with that so called handicap of his, i am still am not able to catch up to him.. Im always like lagging 10 mins behind him la.. So sad laaa..

Although i would say there have been improvements since 3 mths back where i was lagging behind for half an hour.. LOL.. But still far away from smelling the medals if im not on par with him yet. Not enough.. Need more training.. Which means i will be darker than ever before... Hah..

Lets just hope for the best! Do my bestest! Aim for top 5! Hope of getting below 2hr 35mins tomorrow! All the best to everyone taking part tomorrow!

Ohh.. AND a big Happy Birthday to the EViL TwiN!! Yeap most of you do not know this but i have a twin but she was adopted for some reason or another.. Or was it me that was adopted? I was too young to remember.. Hahaha.. Where is the pary at? Lol..

2008-10-13T21:49:00.002+08:00

Exam Fever.... Moodless .. But IT has to go on.. JIA YOU!!

Exams are around the corner 8 more days to be exact.. Damn it.. Studying makes me tired.. I dono why..

Ok.. On a side note... Singapore public transport system has revert back to its old self again.. The only thing that has changed is the increased cost since 1st October...... Sighz....

Thanks to all who voted for my niece.. I dono whats the results.. Ha.. Still thanks!

Okla.. Back to studying.. Wont be blogging till after 6th November! Maybe if im free then i will be blogging.. But i doubt so i would.. hah.

2008-10-04T20:58:00.005+08:00

MY BABY NIECE IN COMPETITION!!

Please help me vote for my cute little niece!! Aint she cute? Just like the uncle rite?? :P Yeap she was the one whom i said who looked like me when i was a baby.. And now she is 3mths old.. How time flies.. She also like to baby talk a lot.. Dono what kinda story she mumbles to everyone..

Oh... I dont like babies using pacifiers.. And i always prevent Atiqah from using it.. There was once she was given a pacifier.. I stood up and moved towards her and she quickly drop it before i could take it out from her.. Haha.. So clever la.. Now no pacifier she use her hands instead and likes it more than using a pacifier.. Opps!

Okok.. Vote For Atiqah alright!! If can vote everyday!! Thank You!! :D

Here is the link: http://www.huggies.com.sg/photocontest/gallery.aspx?id=476

VOTE NOW PLEASeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... Heh..

2008-10-04T20:45:00.006+08:00

My Tune This Month...

It is time to change the song for the month and this is my pick for the month...
The song is very nice to listen aside from it being emo.. Been listeningi to it a lot.. The lyrics.... Meaningfully depressing...

Baby Goodbye by Aqualung..

Aqualung Lyrics

Oh and WTF!!! LIFEHOUSE IS IN TOWN!! WTF!!! I didnt get to see LIFEHOUSE LIVE at St James Powerhouse...... Im damn disappointed.. I wish they would have made it more public about them coming over..... Sianz.. Some more exams and competitions around the corner..... Sianz.. Anyone can tell me if you noe they are coming to SG again? OR if they are goin KL next? Maybe i can go... Damn it...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

2008-09-30T22:20:00.003+08:00

For three years running since my study in SIM.. I have been having my celebration in line with the exams... Freaking annoying.. but nonetheless.. I hope to enjoy the first 5 days of Hari Raya before i start mugging in full force...

Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslims friends and family!! ( Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.. Jika tekasar bahasa.. Salah silap harap maafkan) Its a time to forgive and forget..

Will post up some pics of the celebration in one of these 5 days! :D

Happy Holidays to all my other friends!!

Oh boy.... Im goin to need to train alot more after this 5 days... All those glorious fattening food....
Im sure all my canoe friends cant wait to be invited over for a makan makan session.. Haha...
Its confirmed.. My mum say can....... When im free.... of coz can... But nvr say when.. Haha!

And i put up 2 of my favourite Hari Raya songs!! Its very nice to listen to my childhood songs allo over again.. I listen to them just coz it was catchy.. Now listening to one of them i found out that its actually quite sad... ha.. I was like so young back then la.. 1993 like that.. Haha.. Those were the days man...

F1 Frenzy Ends - Something I cant help noticing

2008-09-28T22:52:00.007+08:00

The craze is over.. Congrats Alonso.. And finally all my friends who are busy with the event will be free.. :D

I wonder 61 laps...... How many of times of those ERP gantries did they pass thru man!! Haha..

And bcoz of this event.. I find something odd for the past three days la..

I find it funny how Singapore's "Public" transport reacts to an inteernational event such as this..

I find that the train is not packed like Sardines anymore and almost all the trains come in half the time than how it used to be.. Now i can find myself a sit in the mrt if im lucky enough on none peak hours when im in town. And when its peak hours, surprisingly i dont have to brush shoulders or squeeze and be squeezed just to get into the MRT..

How cool is that! Singapore "Public" transport system improve significantly since the F1 began or is it?? Hah...

I wonder what is going to happen in 3 days time after the F1.. I give them face ok.. 3 days ok.. Haha! Though i hope they stay this way!

And ohh.. You must be wondering why i put public as "public"? ha..

They are not.. They are PRIVATELY listed in the market and are making supernormal profits and give dividend to shareholders and stuff.... bla bla.. STILL CAN GIVE DIVIDENDS SOME MORE!! Walao.....

Im disappointed at how they call themselves public if they are earning such profits and giving dividends to the shareholders and at the same time can increase cost of travelling further.
Recent drop in oil prices, didnt push them to decrease transport fees instead they are pushing the cost of travelling up uP UP! What is the point of calling themselves public transport if the price is not helping the public??

Furthermore, (besides them having well planned tranport lines and services..) i dont see the transport system getting any better or seeing significant improvements in them... Disappointing..

Buses especially.. A first hand experience.. Imagine waiting for a bus no. "XX" for about half an hour while you see 4 of buses "YY" zooming past one after another each coming like five minutes before the other and empty.. Or worst, 2 of the same buses even come to the same bus stop at the same time! Horrible man...

And being like a monopoly in this particualr industry.. It is unfair how they are monopolising the transport system to their own advantage.. Just becoz the transport service they provided is a necessity for us singaporeans, they are changing prices as and when they felt like revising them coz they noe we still use them..

I know that the government will not allow them to raise transport cost significantly.. The government has done a good job at controlling monopolies in SG i.e powergas. But i think we Singaporeans are already feeling the pinch here.. A voice speaking for many... It is suppose to encourage usage of public tranport what...

Even the $275 im getting on 1st October (which im greatful for) will only be enough to cover my one month plus transport fees la! And i am a full time student for goodness sake..

Why i brought up this matter actually?? HAHAHA! Coz more than half of my allowance will be spent on public transport! WTH la... It doesnt help when i explained to my parents im not given enough not becoz i spent more.. It is becoz i have to spent more coz prices are rising out there.. (esp transport.. One day i spent an average of $5 -$6 le).. I eat what for lunch in school?? GRASS?!?! Damn angry man with the transport provider..

Soon everyone will start riding a bicycle.. And then demand increases which lead to higher prices on buying one... Maybe riding one also will need you to have to pay for monthly usage on the pavements/roads.. Haha.. Never stops...

A dream with a meaningless meaning?

2008-09-26T12:57:00.005+08:00

Had a very weird dream today..

The dream happened in school.. (out 0f all the places! Haha!)

And there was a black silhouette human figure.. (Scary.. Hah.. )

Surprisingly, it started out nice.. I can still remember what it felt like..

Its the kinda feeling i have been longing to feel..

No worries, just really contented with life and free...

Then all of the sudden the mood changes.. (fuck)

I was weeping like a little boy..

I wake up from the dream..

Still sniffling and pillow wet from my tears! (maybe i was drooling! wahaha!)

Damn i really cried la! (O_0)

I tried recalling everything that happened...

Why was i feeling so happy? - BLANK

Why was i so depressed after that? - BLANK

Why is it in school? - BLANK (What is so significant that i remember the school of all things?)

What is the Black figure? - BLANK (maybe its myself?)

Why is that i can remember the school, black figure, and the two extreme opposite feelings that i felt but nothing else?

Why it all happened, i hell do not know..

Its like my memory is being sapped away from me!

Heck.. Im still trying to recall what was the dream about.. Its frustrating! Urgh.. Damn it!

Could it be that i was dead? - Coz being dead lift up all your worries and you are free..

Could it be because its not my time yet? - And I wake up crying instead..

This is making me moody la..

- Dream with a meaningless meaning?

Just let it go Nizam...

Another Randomness: Music/Songs

2008-09-24T01:52:00.008+08:00

They reflects the nature of who you are as a person...

Songs reflects the kinda of mood you are really in..

Something you can only do through songs..

To make you feel better or make you feel worst..

To show how/what you feel when you cannot put them in your own words..

To indulge in them when you know there is no one else who can do anything about how you feel..

A good way to hide what you really feel deep inside, your true feelings from the rest of the world..

But to yourself.

Not So Busy Now Part III: Pam's Birthday Surprise 27/08/08

2008-09-17T16:46:00.014+08:00

t Despite my busy schedule, i manage to make time for my group of friends. And the only time was after 10pm. When everything is like almost done for the day.. No one gonna disturb me.. So now you guys know when nizam will be free.. :D

Its also becoz its one of their birthdays, Pam's. Actually i was busy with council stuff.. But without me also 3 of them cannot go for the celebration coz i have the other car!! Haha.. Have car but cannot drive.. I noe I noe.. I have to get my license.. Stop lecturing me already.

At Pam's block again..
I had to force opened the door so that the bdae gal photo could be taken.. Dono why she suddenly so camera shy..
Even with bdae cake also dun wan take photo..
We camwhored in the lift.. Lol.. All 9 of us! She still hides...

In the car, as a passenger.. Haha.. Clarence driving it.. I wind down the window, pretend to take photo and then threw bits of tissue paper into the other car.. HAHA
Bdae gal went MIA..
Still covering her face.. -_-"

I love this shot in the Terminal one lift.. My idea.. Haha.

Feasting at Popeye's in the middle of the night!
Look at Clarence mouth! Must take part in Chowdown this thurs!
I was not aware wen Pam took this photo.

Caught unaware II
Caught unaware III

Caught unaware IV

Act cute..
Re enactment of what i did at terminal 3
Kae Shuan!! Its been a long time since he hang out with us la..
Another reflection shot.. I think its cool
Then off we go to watch planes fly by... Pei yu and Me dream of becomign pilots!! I still want to pursue that dream.. If i cant, i might want to try privately or i dun mind air steward though many tell me not to..

Bdae gal emo ing?? Too touched by the surprise i guess.. Haha..
Wannabes..
Trying to hide behind the lamp post..
This was very funny la.. Tried to cross the road then Jian Hua and Yvonne stepped into the "quicksand" even after i warned them.. Haha.. Guess they never hear wat i said.. Damn funny la wen i saw them got stuck deep inside and Yvonne lost her shoes in them and had to dug for it..
Then off to Changi Village for dessert.. A fattening day..

At last wen we gave her her birthday gifts she decided to take photos!! Haha..

I want to do this again man!! Maybe next we should go to Island Creamery or somewhere towards the west side of sg instead of always the east! Try the great food of the west! We'll see how.. Before exams!

Not So Busy Now Part II - Nike Run

2008-09-17T15:04:00.010+08:00

Went for the Nike Run Human Race 10km with Pam, Pei Yu, Jason, Melissa and Clarence.. The usual bunch.. Camwhored before the race.. One of the things we always and must do..

The Babes.. Clarence has always been one.. Lucky him..
It was a very good experience. But the lanes were just to cramp to accomodate 10 000 participants. I was like stuck while running my race and had to walk for like 400m during the start off and had to slow down at the water points.. It was very cramp la..

I took the red band which means clock time below 50mins.. Lolz.. Jason did too without his knowledge.. the shirt size also... Pity him.. Haha.. Just becoz he say he targets to be like me in canoeing... Im targeting to surpass JunSheng.. Haha..

We even did the same pose and was made to wear the same shades.. Clarence the mastermind in all these..

"Nizam wear what size? I also take the same size."

I told Clarence i wan to try out the red band. So Clarence who collected mine and Jason's race pack on our behalf decided to get Jason the same assuming that what i wanted is what Jason would want.. LOL.. Jason was kinda shocked when he got the red band.. And so we decided to change the bands coz not very confident of clocking below 50 minutes.. And took the green band which is above 65mins.. heh..

At the end of it i managed to run a timing of 62mins inclusive of traffics and slowdowns and not mentioning running an extra route coz i saw my friend whom i left behind suddenly in front of me.. Haha.. I hope the next Nike Run would be better at the routes planning/coordinations and traffic control.. Other than that it was well done. Shots after the run still smiling and full of energy..

N i tot im seeing double after only a 10km run..

And i found these three ladies who went crazy after the run.. In need of medication..

Saw alot of other people there too.. Kinda a good way to catch up to people whom you have not met for some time.. Provided that you can catch your breath first to say hi..

And Pei Yu decided to look thru the huge data of photos over the net for her photos in action during the run and found mine instead.. Haha.. And so nice of her to forward them to me.. I tried to do the same but after page 5 i decided to give up looking. Heh..

Something new: Not as busy anymore!! Part One

2008-09-16T00:27:00.006+08:00

Ok time to slow down.. Finally i get to slow down myself.. A much needed break from all the roles and responsibilities..

Still gotta manage these:

1) Council Accounts/Claims.. (never ending)

2) Inter Collegiate Futsal Challenge Semi and Finals this Thurs!

3) Canoe proposal for Boats.. YAY WE GETTING OUR OWN BOATS!!!!! We already got PFDs! and guess what colour it is? -- RED -- (-_-)'' The colour of the year for me is red i guess.. (you will noe y as you read on.. Ha..)

4) Macroecons II Test on the 23rd Sept. The last test! 10 chapters out of all the 12 chapters.. What are they thinking i also donno.. Might as well just give an exam..

5) Exams in 1 month and 8 days! Woohoo

6) ROUND UBIN MARATHON in November! As vice capt, i hope to win a medal for the team! Ha.. Train harder newbie!

7) Proposal for Expedition and Annual General Meeting (canoeing)

8) Most importantly: Manage those dear to my heart.. Family and friends.. Those i have been neglecting.. And im sorry i had done so..

So much so for being free.. Lol..

Ook ook where should i start off from.. Hmm.. Lets begin from the latest.. Organized the latest Event for SIM - "THE SIM INTER COLLEGIATE FUTSAL CHALLENGE" with the help of my friend from all the different Councils UOL, UB, UOW and of coz of my own guys RMIT :D This is the first ever SIM INTERCOLLEGIATE FUTSAL CHALLENGE and i was given the honour to lead the event.. Pressure, pressure..

It was a gruelling 1 month of planning but made easy with the help of all these people! Thanks guys and ladies! The preliminaries was a great success and the weather was too good.. I got my face burnt.. Never happen to me when i kayak la... Damn it!

All the best to the teams that qualify into the semis and finals! $400 man for first! $300 for second placing and $200 for third! A lot of money!

I am being a bit biased here "GO BIG Gs! Win it this THURSDAY!! Bring glory to SIM RMIT!" Haha..

Next as promised, photos of the bash.. Ha.. Most of them censored one.. Want to see me in RED SPEEDOS?? Its all over my Facebook, photos posted by my friends.. I won't post them here.. Pai seh la.. Lolz.. Nothing much to see also anyways.. I only got a few of the nice ones.. The rest are all blurred or dark (dark is just me i guess.. haha).. My frens all no DSLR la.... I wan a Nikon or Canon DSLR!! Anyone want to buy for me? :D

QnA Session: I chose question no. 7 my favourite number that is.. "What are two qualities you would like to see in a girl? And Y?" My answer: Kind hearted and full of determination! Haha.. Y? I wont tell you..

Me and my partner F1: Tina Toh!

My solo walk: The feather damn irritating la.. And it almost dropped.. I had to pretend and pose with it just to readjust.. Haha..

Thats all for the time being.. The official photographs are not released to us yet..

WHAT A SHOCKING JOKE?

2008-09-10T11:50:00.012+08:00

Bash has ended... Finally.. But it will only really end after next week.. Cant wait for all these fuss to be over man...

ANNOUNCEMENT

It will officially be made known next week. But I dont want to hold onto the title that does not belong to me any much longer and pretend. Its time to congratulate the correct people who are suppose to win the titles.

To everyone, I am no longer MR SIM RMIT.. Its no joke.. Heh..

Im not that shocked that im no longer one, I was more shocked that i won on that day and i know i should not have won coz i know what are my chances of winning, coz i know who has been so called decided to win what.. BUT still my name was being called.. *SHOCKED - ED*

And now I received this other news.. Not so shocking though.. Heh..

"Nizam there were some screw ups in the vote count. There will be a recount and don't be despair if you no longer the winner."

Ha.. despair? More like damn embarassed i will be la.. Two times the embarrasment man for I am a contestant and also part of the Council.. What could be WORST than this? People WONT go around saying council made some outrageous mistake or who are at fault for the error and even if they did, they will still say something like:

"Eh thats the short guy who basked in the glory but was de - crowned.. *shhh* not so loud.. *giggles*giggles* Wat a joke RMIT pageant has been... Pageant no longer has credibility.. *giggles*giggles*"

I dont care if i didnt win the pageant in the first place la. I KNOW where i stand and what were my chances in the first place too.

It is the new bonds and friendships forged that is more important to me. :D

Winning is just a bonus.

But now that i "won" and de - crowned, im only afraid to be only a laughing stock.. Will i be one? =( I guess so until maybe after the next crowning...

I dont know if i should be angry man.. I dont know who to be angry at for all these mess created.. I dont know why i am not angry when im suppose to be furious.. I was told to pursue the matter for my votes can't change that drastically..

"Make noise Nizam!! Stop being nice already!!"

But i know this will only create more mess out of things than it has already been.. I dont wish to trouble my friends in council anymore and Im sure I wan all these to end faster than ever and so do my friends in council.. Hopefully people will forget that the short fart ever did "won" and basked in the few moments of glory which he never should have.

If a short fart ever did win like talib says:

"Eh short fart, You proved them wrong.. Height is not a matter.. You will be making history in the modelling industry! Being short will be th IN thing now la.. LOLz.."

I learnt a lot of things from all these and see alot of true colours and how low people can stoop just to get things their way. I see people behaving immaturely despite of how old they are.. I see people i can keep as friends and i see people i have to be wary of and not being made a fool/used of again. Sadly to say, im begining to see the true nature of some people in the industry that are of shady characters too.

Anyways, WHATS DONE IS DONE.. And i just have to live with people making fun of me and/or the council.. I have decided to let things rest.. What has been decided, its final! Do not instigate thoughts into my mind already.. I HAVE ACCEPTED ITS FINAL! :D

So now I present you the rightful owner of MR SIM RMIT: M5 JONATHAN

And the rightful owner of MR PERSONALITY: M2 ADRIAN

Congrats! :D

Oh unless there are going to be anymore changes, i think i at least get to keep my MR PHOTOGENIC title. ;D

Out of all these mess I am happy for all the experience though rough it may be, it makes me stronger. Knowing who are the people who have my back and supported me all the way, knowing new friends. Hearing screams of my names and cheers each and everytime i walked out on the runway, you guys make me feel like a winner already!

And i thank you!
PS: Will update more photos soon once i get them.. :D

SIM RMIT BASH!! VOTE FOR ME~~!!!

2008-09-03T11:38:00.007+08:00

I have been very busy with all the rehearsals and photoshoots, bash ticketing, counting money.. Go this place go that place.. And above all I have been spending money of over $200 man just for being in the event man and hardly find time for myself what more for my friends..

SO all the hard work done, i need all of you people to support me.. :D

People do come to the SIM RMIT BASH this coming 06th September at ZOUK and vote for me!!! HAHAHA... Im M1 ! I am always under the sun!! :P

For those who do not know yet... Yeah im one of the pageant candidates! (Shocking aint it? Ha..) So please come down and vote for me so that i can win! HAHA!! The odds are very very difficult to say thats why i cant emphasized how important it is that i need your votes! Yes you!

There will bea swim wear segment included!

LOL.!
Anyways it will be from 730pm till late.. Drinks included..

Tickets will be $20 until this friday and it will cost $23 at the door! So hurry and purchase your tickets now!!

Ask me for more details @ hairul_zulkiffri@hotmail.com those who have my handphone no. call me direct okie! :D

I end off with a video of the Bash PROMO! MUST GO OK!! SEE YOU THERE! :D

BUSY

2008-08-20T18:31:00.002+08:00

Tests.. Meetings.. The hectic schedules.. More tests.. Training.. Council.. Quad Council.. Bash.. Pageants (BTW,Pageant Nannies: You guys did great!).. Kayaking.. Orientation.. Futsal Challenge.. No time for friends.. No time for myself.. During wee hours will i only have time.. To study..

Blog will be dead until somewhere next month maybe.. Time to make sure i get my As and not like last semester.....

WHO SAY SINGAPORE GOT NOTHING MUCH TO DO?! (PART II)

2008-08-19T11:23:00.000+08:00

Ouhkay.. As i said in the previous entry, we didnt pay for the durians that we have eaten (excluding me).. We were so guilty bout eating and not paying that we decided to go back to the place to hand over the money we owe... *ehem* We are nice people *ehem*

I was very late as i had council stuff to manage and made John wait until he fallen asleep at the bus stop. Sorry dude...

On the way to the durian area, i snapped a few photos.. guess what is this thing? Ha..

After we paid for what we owe, the durians crazy people eat some more durians since they are already there.. This time we make sure we paid. Ha.. The durian seller even sat behind us to have his supper (maybe keep watch on us to make sure we wont go off again without paying)

After the durian session we headed on to our "real plans" to have supper at KTM.
And we camwhored in the car for awhile before heading off.. lol..

After much decision making, while the driver still driver dono where to head to, we decided to cancel the journey to KTM or to Simpang Bedok. Instead we ended up here!
To surprise pam and jio her out for supper..

And since Pam never switch on her hp when she is at home, we had to go up to her house to personally invite her la... Like some princess like that.. Nag and nag at her to keep her hp on also no use, she will still switch it off.. Very stubborn eh this gal..

We took the chance and knock on her door at almost 2am in the morning! We made quite a bit of noise at her door.. Camwhoring for like 10minutes.. Ha..

Unglam shot.

At the witch's hut.. We were contemplating if its the right one.. We just heck it and knock.. If wrong then paiseh.. go to the next one.. Haha.. Sounds like my jackass gang..

And finally the so called princess in the witch's hut opened the door..

And off we go to our next destination: Changi Airport (Pei Yu drove had drove from one corner to the other of SG)

We had a mini race with the baggage trolleys.. :D

John posing for advert on the trolley.. Yeap he is John

I got a free ride around airport.. So nice of the big guy..

Bengz and lianz.. Posers..

The shocking face wen i see that i gain 1.5kg.. on the Baggage weighing machine..

And i decided to take some random shots..

The airport is like a ghost town at 4am..

There were like only us and these people bumming/waiting for their flight or someone to arive..

The biggest love seed i ve seen.. I wan to collect 512 of them small ones and put in a bottle and maybe give it to someone i think worth giving to one day.. Till that day, i will keep it for myself..

After supper we decide to check in the hotel? Oh wait, we havent eaten supper..

I like their interior design and settings.. We had our supper here! Yea rite.. Half of my allowance will be gone if we did..

This guy was sleeping with his head inside the hole of the seat's arm rest.. It looks small for his head to fit in but it did.. Wonder if he is able to get out of it wen he wakes up.. Heh.. Hotels at the airport are not cheap..

We were all sleepy too and thus headed home after we had an EVM somewhere at the airport.. I want to eat popeye's actually.. I cant say where we ate at if not someone will get tortured.. EVM is a big hint!! WAHAHA..

WHO SAY SINGAPORE GOT NOTHING MUCH TO DO?!

2008-08-16T01:52:00.003+08:00

Actually there isnt really much to do la.. Its actually the company of friends that you spent your time with that makes what seems boring to be actually a lot of fun! And its damn funny too.. Ha..

One of those supper days some time back.. We all head down to Geylang to have some durians.. As for me i just sit down and watch them feast.. Eyes tired and all but i still choose to go for the supper and have some fun! :D

The three stooges..

Our Valued Driver

What enormous jackfruits!

The durians crazy people..

Everyone's savouring, Im suffering

Then to Mustafa Centre we go! When we reached, we remembered that we have not paid for all the durians that we have eaten! Haha.. And so we didnt go back to make the payment! We had too much fun camwhoring taking photos of the big guy sorting the durians out.. Haha.. Wash our hands, use their tissue paper.. I even have the cheek to bring the tissue box back to the car!! And we just walk off without paying! Haha.. Damn funny la...

Now my turn savouring and they watching me eat! Haha..

SO CUTE!! Ha..

Dressing up For Halloween!

Wat a Buaya..

Princess Finding Her Fitting Slippers!

After all the fun we had.. We decided that we should have a next outing to pay back the money we owe.. Haha.. Stay tuned....

To be continued....

The Unsung Heores.. Still doesnt have a tune..

2008-08-11T01:56:00.006+08:00

Unaware of How Big Fires Can Get In Singapore?

Im here again to create awareness..

Just a few days back my friends say:

"SCDF sooo relax..."

"SCDF got a lot of fires to fight meh?"

Me:
"Yes sometimes fires can get so big they razed the factory to the ground." (I had two experience of such in my 1 yr as fireman)

"Sure or not fire can get that big?"

"How come never hear in news one?"

So many questions.. I tell without prove also no use.. So my friends who asked me about all these i dont blame you guys, as i said i was one of you people until i became a fireman myself..

Coincidentally me and my big mouth... Now its in the news! Lolz...

This is a recent news on one of the bigger fires in Singapore.. The factory was razed to the ground.. Now you people believe me or not??? Heh..

It happened in Sungai (Sungei) Kadut.. Its near Woodlands Road/Mandai, the industrial areas. Used to be my area when i was once a fireman.. Ohh man..... How i miss being in action! =/

Picture - Straits Times

My fellow ex collegue aka Pang (or was it straits time that calls it):

"The biggest 7th month offering in 5 years."

Lolz..

"I could’ve imagined the expression on the officer’s face in the first arriving fire pumper. Balls shrink, man!

And I heard that the front bonnet of one of the engines totally melted, lah. Luckily, the 18 other appliances (total of 18 fire engines) were not affected and the 70 firemen were okay. Eh, woots, that is alot of manpower."

Will update more of the history of big fires in sg.. Maybe provide statistics also.. :D To create awareness to my friends and hopefully my friends' friends and theirs...

These unsung heroes work hard.. But still doesn't have a tune.. I will do my bid to sing for them...

- Thanks to Pang whom shared this info.. Was looking for it la... Thanks :D

Today is 09/08/08!!!! Overdue: Sentosa Trip II (29/07/08)

2008-08-09T00:19:00.005+08:00

Happy 43rd Birthday SINGAPORE!!! Im so proud of you after all these years!! Majulah Singapura!! Heh.. :D

Went to Sentosa again with the same bunch of one of my group of frens aka classmates! This time around we went to the southern most point of sg instead of the beach that is bustling with young hot babes.. =/

I was late.. And they were trying to make me feel guilty by saying that all of them had to go home earlier and becoz of me they wont get to enjoy much.. I was really feeling guilty until they told me later in the day before they going back, that they were trying to do so.. Clarence nvr before put up such a convincing act. I actually believed wat they said (for the first time) usually i see thru their bluff.. Haha..

I love taking photos of sceneries.. Wish to have a Pro camera once of these days.. Take up a new hobby! Ha..

Camwhoring as usual..

The cool trio..

I kinda like this pic.. Apes..

More photos of the surroundings.. I like how colourful it looks.. Must ask Pang teach me more about photography..

Whose who? :D

Beauty and the Beast

Clara candid shot on me posing.. Ha..

CAUGHT ON CAMERA!! Touchy touchy.. Get a room la!

Everyone's suntanning.. Me suntanning in the shade of the trees.. Ha.. I hate the sun.. Hate my tann..

Camera shy..

I like this effect.. Make me "whiter" lolz..

Working out..

Eating time!!

I took this photo of Clarence emoing.. Nice shot i think :P

And i have landed!

Cute little thing!

Kids dont do this in public..

And then... The jumpshot begins... =/

C= Clara C= Clarence J= John N= Nizam P= Pamela P= Pei Yu

And we all start molesting and posing with the tree.. :D

The rock where we carved our initials..

The night activity playing with light sticks..

We begin to get creative.. (bored) Lolz..

hmmm... Who is abu??

YEAH!! CANOE CANOE CANOE!!

I gathered all the lightsticks and twirling them around me.. Ha..

And the day ends.. We all going home..

BLOODY HAPPY

2008-08-05T09:21:00.003+08:00

I was woken up early this morning with a surprise!! And have to blog bout it!

Andy(my Bro): Eh you got a package le! Wake up!

Me: huh?? (you noe how can a person be when they are groggy after waking up)

What package? Dont disturb me laaa... Now what time only~....

Andy: Its a package from overseas.. Who send to you?

Me: Huh?? Took the package from my bro and lie back down on bed with the package under my pillow and closed my eyes again for a few moments before waking up as if realising i just took something from my brother.. heh..

Two names come to mind when i remembered i heard overseas: Brian and Alvin. Open and rubbed my eyes and took the package from underneath my pillow, trying to read the prints on it.. There is only a name and my address.. Its Alvin! Now i know why he asked for my address.. Ha..

My mind was not functioning very well with lack of sleep.. I observe at the size of the package, wondering what could it be? I tried to look for an opening tab but there wasnt any.. Everything was tightly sealed or maybe its just me being tired... So i just tore the bag at the sides.. :P

Then i remembered that i wanted to buy Lifehouse latest album! It is! Lifehouse latest album Malaysia's edition some more! It comes with bonus tracks too!! Ha.. =) Luckily i never bought it with Clarence and share the cost last Monday. Anyways it must have cost a bomb la with all the express delivery cost..

And furthermore the courier service sucks! The CD Case is broken! They never handle with care! =/
Lucky me the cd inside is just fine.. I immediately played it on my laptop(over and over)! And load it up my itouch. =D Yeap! They are as good as all their other albums! The song "Disarray" especially!

Thanks a lot Alvin!

Its The Time of The Season Again!

2008-07-30T21:25:00.006+08:00

Yes. So called the "King" of all fruits is in season! Damn~ Ha.. Nowadays i stepped in the MRT with overwhelming smell of durians.. There was once a few days back, I was in the cabin with someone holding a bag of durians. So I move on to the next cabin and I thought what a strong smell but in actual fact the other cabin had another passenger with durians and stinking up the whole place.

I had no choice and move on to the next one. The smell makes me a bit nausea. Well just have to accomodate to everyone else. :D My whole family loves durians except for me and my Elder Sis. They bought one gunnisack of durians the other day and i had to stay in my room for the rest of the day...

Clarence last week bought an ice cream durian cake from the hotel that is just next to Far East Plaza that shares with the same place as the Club Jumper.. Looks good.. Smells bad.. Ha.. It takes an acquired taste to eat something like durians.. He also bought an additional 6 durian puffs as if the whole 1.5kg (I think its 1.5Kg =p) of cake is not enough!!

Crazy durian eaters! You people gonna come down with sore throat i tell ya with all the heatiness!! Clara is evidence! Lolz..

But im sure I know no one yet that can beat my younger sister.. She had a whole gunnisack just for herself in her own room!!

I was complaining and complaining of the smell and so... My brother bought me the cologne that I have always been wanting to buy BVLGARI AQVA MARINE!! Just love the scent! And i got Davidoff Adventure as a free gift too!! And all for less than $60 from Airport Duty Free!! I love you bro.. Lolz.. Now im going to go out with my dates with nice scent on (if i ever got myself a date....). =D

The scent reminds me of old times though.... Haiz..

"I'm Gonna Smile Cause I Deserve To.. Since There Is No More You And ME.. Its Time To Let Go So I Can Be Free.. And Live My Life How It Should Be.. No Matter How Hard It Is I'll Be Fine Without You"

National Canoeing Competition - Photo updates

2008-07-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

Its our first sprint competition and I actually think that we were not so bad after all despite the lack of a proper training. Hope SIM management sees something good in us and see how dedicate we all are.

Ultimately, its all about the exposure and of course to have loads of fun!! And we did! :D

That is our Jun Sheng doing his 10000m
Sarah and Pam, The 200m Duo

Haha.. I like this photo.. Very cute.. =D
- The EXCOs -

The Jerseys.. Someone I know designed it! =p

This pic damn cool man.. The shadow effect n how calm he looks.. "Realistical"

Shagged but he still smiling.. Thats the way!
Buying 4D after Junsheng's Race.. Im not sure if they won anything.. But since they were so quite its either they didnt win.. Or they just kept quite oftheir winnings.. Heh..
The Capt and Mrs Capt also bought 4D.

While waiting for the race.. They should have some form of entertainment.. Its not very lively the atmosphere at the race...
Mel and the rest were geared up for a run since the wait for the next race will be quite long..
Nothing better to do.. Camwhoring..

And our most valued member(middle blue)! Caroline from SCS who came down to support us! Just love her! such a nice person and a cheerful and funny one..

And to those who werent there.. You missed out on alot.. Heh.. After the whole event competition I invited all members to come over my house for my sister's baby shower. They enjoyed the food a lot!! Everyone had their 2nd serving of food! I was shocked as Stephanie is able to eat more than i can!! Haha..

Maybe like they said i will start a food business where my mum and dad will cook.. I just count the money.. =D

LIFEHOUSE - WHO WE ARE

2008-07-25T01:43:00.003+08:00

ARgGGhHHhh.... I really think their latest album(which is already quite old) is as good as all of their other album... Lifehouse has been my all time favourite band.. Their music has never been a disappointment. Its time to buy the album!!! Have to wait until my next allowance though.. Sucks!!

Oh.. I still cant find all the other albums that i bought!! Damn it la... Who took it from me pls pls give me back.. I only have them on my itunes as of now... Freaking sad...

Anyway the rainy season is coming.. This is the best song to be played out of their album in such a weather... Its called STORM.. Ha..

Hope it doesnt really affect my canoeing training for the upcoming months.. Will be damn sad if it does..

Storm - Lifehouse

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I could see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

"Culture Shock"

2008-07-24T17:33:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since I have met someone who is so uncultured other than the blogger who got arrested recently. He is someone who thinks that he is the only one who stands on this world and that the world belongs to only him. What an asshole.

L and W overheard this guy talking about people of different races and was pissed at him and told me about it. They cant stand him and said that he is so racist and very uncultured.

At roughly 520pm today, someone popped a question to this guy. K who is against people who are racist asked him if he is comfortable with working with people of different races. I can tell that he is someone who thinks with his nose high up in the sky.

This guy says no. I cant work with them. I dont like them. He, just dun care about feelings of other races and he meant what he says bout his jokes. His eyes looking at me trying not to maybe hurt my feelings. I give him for that for being considerate of me being around. But his answers are not tolerable.

Like what K says, there are two kind of people here. Those who tell racist jokes but have a lot of other race as group of friends. And those who tell racist jokes coz they really mean what they say and do not intend to have friends with people of other races coz they just hate other races. Those who are just out to insult. Those who thinks they are the elites. He is one of them and I can’t stand people like him.

I have a number of people who always tease me about who i am. Being mixed race and all, i got bombarded with multiple jokes that involve me and i accept them coz yes it is funny and I teased them back bout their own race as well.

But at the end of the day there is respect and acceptance coz hey after all we are all one of the same; Gods creation, descendants of Adam and Eve (belief wise), scientifically, we are all homosapiens, the modern humans.

For him and people like him they are a whole different category: still an ape. Uncivilised.

At the end of the day I heart what M said a lot!!! :

Uncultured guy: Can I have this magazine?

M: Oh you can have it if you don’t mind photos of people of different races in the magazine. LOLz..

Great job M! He deserves it. Hope he can take that kinda jokes. Haha..

Sighz.. But I hope people like him will change their perspectives about people of different ethnicity. Im not angry but I am more of disappointed that I still have to see these kinda people around me.

NCC (National Canoe Competition) & Photoshoot: Part II

2008-07-24T01:10:00.007+08:00

The National Canoe Competiton was really an eye opener to me! Despite only starting for the past 6mths into canoe competitively i think i did a rather good job and progressing quite well for an amateur! Heh.. Photos will be up soon once gotten from steph and mel.. :D

I cant wait for our next competition: round ubin marathon!!

Received news that a friend of Junsheng is building up canoe polo in SIM! How cool is tat! Maybe should have some exchange programme between the two clubs. I wan to try out how to play canoe polo.. Seems interesting. Hope to work closely with them even though we are two seperate clubs.

Yes yes why is suddenly Niz so enthu with canoeing? Alot of you guys might have not known this but it has since been a long time passion of his to canoe/kayak be it expeditions, leisure, competitive.. But all the schools that he went to do not offer such opportunity for him to shine in this sport. So ppl if you love kayaking/canoeing, dun go to EVSS, YJC.. Ha..

Since young I have been canoeing.. In primary sch during scouts.. Yes i was once a scouts member.. No, its not funny at all to be in that CCA ok.. In fact its fun.. It is not "kental" (aka nerdy/geeky)

Then i went for OBS camps not once but 3 times!! My passion just grew there.. Even during the expeditions i compete with all the other campmates and im always leading the pack.. :D

So yeah.. there you go.. Im a canoe freak actually!!
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Anyways.. Im actually bored coz my frens are out mambo - ing.. Bloggin in the middle of the night while everyone else is at Zouk.. Happening man for me here.. =/

Wish i was there but then again.. I aint got the money anymore.. So it sucks to go out without money..

Anyways, these are more of the photos i got from Bernie.. Finally got all of them photos..

Mey looks really wonderful in the photos.. As for me.. Hmmm... Ha.. Anyways there is no choreographer or wat you call them to tell us how to pose or wat to do.. All are natural poses and Bernie just snap and snap and hopefully get some nice shots.. Lolz..

Im a shy guy..

Act cool...
I like this one.. Very act cool..
Do you know what im thinking? Heh heh..
Shy shy again

Act cute only

And here we are the outcome of the poster.. Mey sure looks good here..

Pure Randomness

2008-07-18T02:04:00.004+08:00

We all want someone who will cheer us on when we are feeling down and someone to notice if we don’t show up. The loneliest feeling in the world is knowing that if you fell off the face of this planet that nobody would really notice or care. Everyone wants to know that somebody really cares about what happens to them. From the days of the caveman, we have hated to sleep alone in the dark. It goes to the depth of the human soul.

But its a struggle trying to find someone who is compatible on a deeper level and it always happen that we (for me at least) continually date the wrong types.

For example, you may be attracted to someone sparkly and social, but deep down need someone who is intellectual and dependable. So, you keep dating socialites who have no depth. The flip side is that you date someone who is really smart and career oriented, but they are too introverted and shy when you take them out into more public settings.

When you have found someone that you want, more often than not, they are either already taken or they have different lives to lead, different from what/how you want to lead yours. You know that things are just not meant to be..

.... I dun noe wat im getting at here.. But ya.. Finding the right one is not easy.. Period. Heh..

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Anyways, finally managed to get a photo of one the nimble squirrels at Macritchie Reservoir.. It was trapped by me and my frens on the construction fencing.. Looks so vunerable.. Damn cute.. Wonder if i can catch one and keep as a pet.. Hmmmm... Is there any rules set by NEA? Heh...

After training got class then had another photoshoot.. Wah damn tiring man from 6pm to 11pm.. Didnt noe modelling can be so tiring and makes people hungry.. Ha.. But it was damn fun!! Feel like making this a part time thing already (dun think anyone would hire... Anyone??).. Ha..

The Life and Times of A Singaporean

2008-07-15T01:14:00.003+08:00

I find this on the emails sent out by my friend and i find that it is very interesting and funny.
Yes its true that everywhere nowadays in the CBD area you will see ERP gantries and it is a toll to all vehicle owners.. Wats with the ERPs you mite ask? Personally i think its just a way to make money.

But as an economist i should not think of it that way. Should think as there is a future economic reason behind it.

Economists might see that there is a likelihood that there is a going to be a huge increase in the number of vehicles on the road and it will be difficult to curb the traffic if this goes on and one of the more "effective way" to reduce the growing number of vehicles on the road which will take a toll on the environment on a small country is through ERP.

And what is the reason for ERP on MRTs and lifts you might say? Oh well im not sure yet... Lolz.. (Maybe it means MAS not really doin well on their reserves if this happens..)

Competitions coming up soon!! Geeez... Im so not prepared for it.. I dont think i will do well in canoe sprint.. Im more of a long distance kinda person.. But i hope this will be a good experience for all taking part!! And if you want to support me its at macritchie reservoir this saturday.. :P But just so you guys noe.. I have absolutely zero confidence in this race.. Paiseh..

Amateurs In Action

2008-07-11T23:22:00.004+08:00

Done some photoshoots of me and my friends for SIM Student Council Posters. I didnt know why i was chosen for i never model or do photoshoots before.. There is one though for SCDF but that i also declined.. Ha.. Should have gone to gain experience.. Then maybe one day can be real poster boy.. LOLz...

Here are some of the better photos taken.. Ha.. But then again dont think i am suited to be a photograph model...

This one is not a photo from the photoshoot.. I think i look better just being me.. Ha..

Back To School: Means busy and fun

2008-07-05T00:24:00.004+08:00

The first week of school just started and damn it just packed and packed with many activities in the morning and after school.. Busy busy busy.. And now its finally the weekends! Woo hoo.. :P

Next week onwards schedule will be from monday until thursday and that means i have a long weekend! So you guys noe wen to book me in my busy schedule.. Heh..

Anyways, I thought that when school starts i will have this bad habit of mine sleeping in class gone. But no!! I still fall asleep in class and it is always from 1430hrs until 1500hrs.. Haha..

If not becoz of my classmates, i wouldn't know that i have such sleeping pattern. Haha..

Clara: Zam zam~ You very scary leh... Everytime sleep at about 230 then everytime wake up at exactly 3pm..

Yvonne: Eh you very funny exactly 3pm you wake and you sneeze so loud to tell everyone you are awake..

And just now Jon tried to wake me up from the sleeping habit but Clara told him not to disturb me for i will wake up soon and i fell back to sleep.. Heh.. And i did wake up at 3pm finding myself resting against Clarence's shoulder (nice cushions).. Haha..

Busy but a fun week!! :D

Ohh~ and Im getting darker by the day.. =.=''

Yet another personality Test

2008-06-30T21:31:00.001+08:00

The Gentleman

Deliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLM)

Steady & mature. You are The Gentleman.

For anyone looking for an even-keeled, considerate lover, you're their man. You're sophisticated. You know what you want both in a relationship and outside of it. You have a substantial romantic side, and you're experienced enough sexually to handle yourself in that arena, too. Your future relationships will be long-lasting; you're classic "marrying material," a prize in the eyes of many.

It's possible that behind it all, you're a bit of a male slut. Your best friends know that in relationships you're fundamentally sex-driven. You're a safe, reliable guy, who does get laid. In a lot of ways, you're like a well-worn, comfortable pair of socks. Did you ever jack off into one of those? All the time.

Your ideal mate is NOT a nut-job. She is giving and loving, like you, but also experienced.

Your exact male opposite:

The Last Man on Earth

Random Brutal Sex Dreamer

Always avoid: The Battleaxe (DBLM)

Consider: The Maid of Honor (DGLM), someone just like you.

Link: The Online Dating Persona Test | OkCupid - free online dating | Dating

An Analogy..

2008-06-26T00:59:00.003+08:00

A friend of mine wrote this and i coudnt agree more to it. Relationship needs alot of dedication and sacrifices and if one party is not willing to do so then it is pointless to go on in building one..

Finding a girlfriend, He concluded, is just like buying a value meal at a fast food joint. its about what you can afford, what you prefer, and what is on offer, taking into consideration the first two points.

when you buy a value meal, you dont just get the burger. you get the fries and drinks. you dont just look at the burger alone, you get the whole deal because it satisfies you. the fries and drinks, without it, would not constitute a meal. just like a girlfriend.

on top of that, there are other options to note. whether you want it upsized or not. to have it there or take away.

when you get a girlfriend, you dont just get the girl. you get the personality and the looks. you dont just look at the girl alone, you get the whole deal because it satisfies you physically and emotionally.

without the other components, she wouldnt be in a relationship. she'd just be a friend. on top of that, there are options to note. whether you want to take the extra effort (to upsize) or not. and finally, whether you want to look at it as a short term thing or take her home to meet mom and dad. (make them part of your everyday life)

Promoter - Ending

2008-06-23T02:24:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to a great friend of mine! Heh..

Ended my working phase as a promoter just now (an hour ago)..Cant wait for my pay.. So here i am back at blogging.. Late at night.. Cant sleep.. Having alot in my mind..

But an update on some great news i have!! My sis just given birth 5 days ago! She is really damn cute..

My niece! Her name is something something n i can only remember Shira..
And thats me!! Was looking at my old baby photos!

She looks just like her uncle!! LOLz... But im serious.. She looks like me when i was a baby only darker coz she gotta sun tan for a bit.. My parents say so too.. Ha..

Then one of my cats gave birth just now during the day to 4 kittens.. Sadly two died.. It always happends that way for cats coz of the survival rate thing..

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Got home and talked to my brother about relationships.

I asked wat it feels like to noe someone calls you almost every other day and thinking of you? He said its wonderful to noe that somewhere someone is always thinking of him and always calling him and he does the same for her too..

And i told him that I envy him... Seeing him talking on the phone for long hours almost every other day.. He pampering her and she pampering him.. Planning outings with his other half.. It digust me at times just hearing them talking on the bloody phone.. Y? Coz i wish for tat too i guess.. Sighz.. It makes me kinda sad at times.. Ha.

I dont even think i make sense.. Im just utterly disappointed today.. Think i should sleep it over..

A Councillor cum Kayaker cum Song Writer

2008-06-11T20:53:00.004+08:00

Very busy... Quotations, quotations, quotations! Due dates, plans, money, chalets, bash.. Yeap school bash (I see alot of eager people wanting to noe more bout the bash.. Ha..)!! Need to get the Councillors' stuff done ASAP by tomorrow.. Orientation is coming soon! That means school is about to start.. =_=''

Been kayaking like hell.. Train until i cant fully straighten or bend my arms.. Towards the end of training i already felt the numbness in my arms.. Yet i still continue to do the "swim" and paddle another approximately 800m back to shore.. heh..

Why i torture myself you might ask?

I like the feeling of training until Im fcking exhausted. And i only train so hard coz i have a lot goin on in my mind that i want to forget.. At the end of the day, i will sleep like a pig and waking up with an aching body.. Shiok!

Tomolo gym training.. Hope my arms are good to go for tomolo gym.. Time to train up my chest. It looks funny to have growing arms with small chest.. (Im goin to look better than Shakin!! Lolz..)Not to mention chicken legs.. Pei Yu, Clarence and Pam thanks for pointing that out everytime.. Cant help it being long distance runner.. No matter what i do it still look skinny..

Anyways asked to write a song for a friend's band. I tot i sucked at writing stuff.. But there are people who trust my talents.. Will post the originals once its done in a couple of weeks.. Haha.. Yeap! Im multi talented! Thanks.. Wahahaha..

Okok.. I wrote this... Its called "Love or Nothing"
*Keep in mind that the vocalist is a girl*

Main

(3) Boy I swear
(8) The whole world stops when you’re not there
(8) Every night I pray for that light
(5) Wanna be by your side

(3) Lost in dreams
(8) This feeling I’m having is surreal
(8) I don’t know how you’d really feel
(5) I’m afraid but still

(Bridge)
Pre chorus

(7) You lingered on in my memory
(7+2) Trapped in this song tied to a me-lody

Chorus

(9) Ooh baby boy I’m into you now
(9) With every kiss and every hug
(6) You make me fall in love
(8) Without you there is no one else

(9) Baby I hope that you’ll be mine
(9) Don’t wanna be with another guy
(6) Its your love or nothing
(8) That’s all I’m asking from you now

Main

(3) So beautiful
(8) A place where I want to rest my head
(8) Your laughter, your smile they never fade
(5) You’re one of a kind

(3) Lost in dreams
(8) This feeling I’m having is surreal
(8) I don’t know how you’d really feel
(5) I’m afraid but still

(Bridge)
Pre chorus

(7) You lingered on in my memory
(7+2) Trapped in a song tied to a Me-lody

Chorus

(9) Ooh baby boy I’m into you now
(9) With every kiss and every hug
(6) You make me fall in love
(8) Without you there is no one else

(9) Baby I hope that you’ll be mine
(9) Don’t wanna be with another guy
(6) Its your love or nothing
(8) That’s all I’m asking from you now….

(Guitar)
Repeat Chorus

(9) My baby boy I’m into you now
(9) With every kiss and every hug
(6) You make me fall in love
(8) Without you there is no one else

(9) Baby I hope that you’ll be mine
(9) Don’t wanna be with another guy
(6) Its your love or nothing
(8) That’s all I’m asking from you now…

Smiling while Sleeping

2008-06-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

Recently i hv been asked by a couple of my friends who observed my sleeping patterns since they got nothing better to do coz they cant sleep i think. I was told that i smile in my sleep. Ha..

Im not sure if they are joking or what but they werent the only ones who said that to me. Once before that, which was some many years back, i was asked the same question: Why you smile in your sleep? What were you dreaming of? And now someone else reconfirmed it again. Heh..

Maybe i was having a really beautiful dream of someone or something... Hmmm.. Wonder what it was... Coz i cant recall them..

If anyone ever catch me sleeping and i was smiling, could you do me a favour and take a photo of me in action? Thanks!

Sales Promoter (Part II)

2008-05-26T01:26:00.007+08:00

Got to work early in the morning and this was what i saw when i first go in the toilet to wash my hands.. Freaking gross man!! Haha.. Nothing M18/violence/gore just digusting...

Must be some uncle forgotten about his dentures.. Damn dirty man look at the brown shit all over his teeth.. Must be a smoker.. Lucky me i stopped!! Lolz.. Deter me from smoking ever again...

And... I cant believe how some people exaggerate way too much to convince customers while doing sales just to make more sales... I just cant do these things man.. Make people believe that a toothpaste is like gold when its just to clean your teeth.. (The person who owes the dentures needs to be convinced that the toothpaste is like gold though.. Lolz)

Anyways its against my principal.. Guess im not the man to do sales.. But i did just fine without going overboard.. ha

AND I MISS KAYAKING!!!! Hope this Wednesday can kayak..... :(

A sales promoter

2008-05-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

Its only the 2nd day of work and im feeling the pain.. My feet, they are killing me from standing way too much each day for 12 bloody hrs.. I cant seem to enjoy my holidays when i work.. Cant hang out with my friends and my love ones.. Working sucks..

And i cant lie.. Its against my integrity to lie to convince customers to get more sales. But the job is easy and the pay is good and its only for a short period of time.. So why not..

Any other jobs as a full time promoter is a NO.

Cant wait for the dreadful work to end.. I cant believe im saying this: I still prefer mind cafe.. Got more interactions and fun when Im working there and colleagues are great too.. You stand that long but my feet doesnt hurt.. It means you enjoy doing your work..

Its the money i need if not i do not need to work.. Oh well.. Slp for now.. Another dreadful day later..

A Secretary/Treasurer

2008-05-21T11:35:00.003+08:00

Its been a very busy busy week.. But i managed to make full use of my time.. Going from one place to another and in between still able to meet my friends and love ones. :D

I had kayaking in the day and was damn shagged.. Felt good though.. First time completing 16 km in less than 1 1/2hr.. Should aim do better like Junsheng.

Then there was Councillors AGM... I was late.. Heh.. Had gastric, damn pain but still i go down for the AGM.. Coz i noe something was in store for me.. Actually got tipped off that i will be given one of the Excos role!! ===> Was actually praying that i will only get the deputy role.. Wahaha..

And as usual i complained to Clara: Ouwh.. I got gastric pain and i didnt eat much...

Clara as usual: I got gastric medicine you wan?

She always hv some remedy inside that Doreamon bag of hers..

When i had headache she has panadol.

When i got splinters she has nail clippers.

Back to AGM - And here i am going to handle the school's money. Sponsors.. Deal with the corporate world in a way.. Woohoo.. Some new challenge!! Now i will be busier more than ever with school.. Ha.. Somehow i just knew i will be given this challenge.. Looking forward to the new experience..

(Oh man.. I will be even more known in school now..)

No matter what position im given, i will give equal priorities to my canoeing club!! Maybe use some of the funds from councillors and fund the canoeing club.. Great Idea!! Lolz..

Embezzle those funds!! Maybe add a new playstation 3 to my room!!

12th May Sentosa - ing after exams

2008-05-17T15:35:00.017+08:00

Went to Sentosa to lay back and relax after exams with John, Jon, Clara, Pei Yu, Clarence and 4 hrs later.... Pamela.. Next time must tell Pam to meet at 6am for breakfast then she will come on time.. Ha.

Clara brought along her camera and so we camwhored... Over 200 photos were taken!!! But i decided to put only 1/5 of them.. (Sounds little aint it? Rather than saying 40 photos.. lol..)

Check out the rest of the photos @

http://laraprincessphoto.blogspot.com

Oh and something unfortunate happened to me while i was swimming.. Really unlucky....

Our first jumping attempt..

Then while i was swimming in the sea, i got stung by a jellyfish.. John and Jon was around me they never kena.. Unlucky me.. Freaking needle prick like pain and my arm was feeling very hot.. John standing beside me can still smile...

Action only... Its no longer that painful..

It looks white coz i took out my board shorts and peed on my arm.. Remnants of salt crystals from my pee.. :D

After the incident took a rest.

Smiling again then its back to the sea for more action!!

Where is Nizam? ha

And the wrestling begins....

Jon won.. Clarence damn shagged face to hv to carry Jon... haha..

Pamela who came 4 hrs later...

And we did another jump with her.. Actually we did alot of jumps..

After all that jumping and wrestling.. We were freaking hungry

Guessing Game 2: Guess where am i?
Me living up to my nickname! No i wont tell..
Fierce xia... But then transformation below!!
Dudes trying hard to act like bimbos...

The girls do it better.. Lol

And another jump....
Beautiful Sunset.............The Ladies never get enough of jumping.....

Happy to finally be Sentosa Islanders!!

I didnt pee on my arms la... Was sent to the First Aid Post for treatment and they spray some antiseptic shit on me to neutralise the pain..

11th May: Mother's Day

2008-05-13T17:17:00.008+08:00

It was Mother's Day, I was away in JB eating seafood with family. Its one of the rarely seen occasions where all of us really get together and go out to have fun just us Family..

Mum was happy that she got gifts from Fcuk, Chopard and a couple ****** watch :P! Yeap, Dad got one matching watch to go with mum's even though its not Father's day. We just thought that it would be nice if they both wear the same watch.. Hah.. So i guess that covers Father's Day too!

Everyone with my brother in law taking the photo.. To think of it he is not in any photo.. Ha.
Mum smiling away at her gifts

The uber nice couple watches..Ahh.. Food that should be forgotten but everything else remembered.. The food sucks big time.. No other comments.. Only these two are worth mentioning.. I dun eat fish.. But their fish is nice wen i was forced fed by mum..

Yeap.. As i said.. Was forced and there is fish in it.. She missess her young little rascals.. All grown up now.. How i wish i was young again too mum! lolz..

Went home happy to see my mum happy! And not forgetting broke too! Lolz..

And i remember helping my friend out for this short clip for some primary school thing 2 years ago.. I helped out with the poetry part.. There was some typo at the end of it though.. :P And i showed it to my mum and she cried.... Think it touched her heart.. O_0 Oh well.. Here's the vid...

Finally its over!!!

2008-05-08T01:10:00.006+08:00

Exams are over.. Waiting for the results( Hope they lost my papers and give me As for all subjects).. Oh well hope for the best.. Ha.

Its time to enjoy, find a part time banking job and enjoy more!! MAybe start DOTA again. Hmm..

Need to clear my room littered with my notes and books..

And here's something random............

I just had this clip of my niece.. Damn cute sexy dance.. And she is only 2 yrs and a couple of months old.. I think she might grow up to be a good dancer or choreographer if she is directed in the right direction.. She has great potential doesnt she? hah.. The song she is dancing to is the only setback.. Ha.. I just cant stand Dangdut (Just like i dun really like techno)

Not so right of a direction: Dancing on bartops at some random Dangdut Place!!

My definition of dangdut: Songs that very much loved by the older Singaporean malay folks in Singapore (especially those uncles who likes to go Batam to the Dangdut Disco Bars - away from their wives.. hah.)

They are actually a hit during the 1970s and originated from Indonesia with Arabic and Indian genres infused also with house and rnb mixes.. and now kinda revived again just like mambo songs kinda thing..

Need to Start Again..

2008-05-04T17:00:00.009+08:00

First off.. Happy belated birthday to the jackass Talib..

Moving on to the real thing.. lol.

My brother (To someone who might ask me: Yes, he is my blood brother. :P ) whom i havent seen since my birthday told me this yesterday.

Andy: "What happened to you?"

Niz: "What?"

Andy: "Your body dont look as great as it was since the last time i saw you. What happened?"

Niz: "Exams la... No time, need to study.." (and i thought it was about how dark i've become..)
(-_-)''

Then he added....

Andy: " And you never use sunblock ah?" He rummages through his bag and "Nah take this sunblock. Banana Boat spray on and its SPF 50 ok!" (o_0)

Niz: "I have one already. But thanks yours looks better (expensive) and mine's finishing anyways.." Heh... No need for me to buy myself another one.. :D

Ohh and whats the difference between sunblock and sunlotion anyways? Mine says sunlotion, his says sunblock.. Both spf 50.... Block = reflect? Lotion = err.. absorb? i dono..

My body has been sleeping for over two weeks. I havent been training all becoz of exams.. One more paper to go and my regime will start all over again.. I cant wait!!

It takes me over 3 mths to reduce my weight and tone my built and now its shrinking and going out of shape in just over two weeks... Just measured: Im weighing only 55kg now!! WTH.. Oh well.. Need to start the maintainance Eat more.. Pushing myself physically.. Im loving it!! It feels great after i exert myself.. The aching muscles.. Haha.. (No no.. im not crazy)

Kayaking will resume too this Wednesday!! I hope... though its officially this Saturday. Hope the weather will be less err burning..

of Labour Day and Labour Baby

2008-05-01T12:36:00.004+08:00

I urgently needed a few days off work, But, I knew the Boss would not allow me to take leave. I thought that maybe if I acted 'Crazy' then he would tell me to take a few days off.

So, I hung upside-down on the ceiling & made funny noises. My co-worker (who's blonde)! asked me what I was doing. I told her that I was pretending to be a light bulb, So, that the Boss might think I was 'Crazy' & give me a few days off.

A few minutes later the Boss came into the office and asked, 'What are you doing?' I told him I was a light bulb. He said, 'You are clearly stressed out. Go home & recuperate for a couple of days.' I jumped down & walked out of the office...

When my co-worker (the blonde) followed me, the Boss asked her '...And where do you think you're going?!'

(You're gonna love this...)

She said, 'I'm going home too, I can't work in the dark!!

HAPPY LABOUR DAY TO ALL YOU WORKING PPL!

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And... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE LABOUR BABY my cute little niece Eliqa who is learning how to walk now! Very entertaining to see them babies.. And soon when they learn how to walk, the mischievious side will come out.. ha..

Dono why she likes playing with the empty roll..

Whose Birthday @ Timbre?

2008-04-29T14:01:00.014+08:00

Its my Birthday celebration and i got an elmo balloon! I tot it was mine...

She tot it was hers...
But it was Clarence's Birthday Surprise!! Ha.. Damn~ Yeap gave a surprise to Clarence for his Birthday yesterday. I feel that it went alright overall. He has always coordinated for everyone elses, so he deserve the surprise.
I was the only rose amongst the thorns when we got there.. I thought usually gals will be late.. Ha.. Then when everyone arrived.. We were approached and asked for our IDs!! WTH..Why must this always happened to me whenever i got to these kinda places.. -_-'' The gals were damn happy bout it coz it means they still look underage when actually the youngest of us is 20 already!! hahaha.. Yeap its a compliment!The Birthday boy was speechless and almost teared.. Ha.. So i guess it was kinda successful. See his eyes red red? (singlish) :P Talking bout red red i had to do alot of photoshopping to reduce the red eyes effect.. -_-'' (Talib still owes me an explaination why is it so!!) And oh Clarence got those stamps from Clara to represent each of the ladies so that he, who is also our class notes provider can stamp on the notes to indicate which notes belongs to who.. How thoughtful.. :P but it really is la..
Birthday Cake damn thick taste of chocolate and sinful.. I ate 3 pieces.. Ha. Just love four leaves cakes..
Birthday boy smiling cheekily with all the ladies...
Seafood platter was good!
Shawn at his favourite act..Birthday boy with his other gifts.. He tot he only got those stamps.. Ha. (note the change of colour to his face and his expression in the following photos)
Me at my favourite Act: Camwhoring with everyone! I was behaving like it was my birthday celebration.. lol..Me and Yvonne ( i had to ask for permission first to take this photo with her.)Me and Pei Yu: Im wondering why do i look so awkward in this photo.. Hmm.. Pei Yu, why ah?

Me and Clara: Something common.. Not a hot scandal to be talking bout anymore.. Ha.Me And Pamela: No its G!! Wahahaha..

Me and Wini: See where i placed my hands on hers? And she gave that face... -_-" Scared of her bf seeing this..Me and Shuan: After i took photos with the ladies, he wanted a photo with me.. Haha.. Nope I didnt spell his name wrongly: Shu an

See all their eyes open big big except for pam? (singlish) They were trying to imitate pam.. haha.. Classic!

Now she shut her eyes.. Knowing what happened.. :D

See the change in the birthday boy face?? More to come..

The Four Act Cute Self Declared Princesses + one Garang one at the extreme right. :)

Almost there.. Hang in there brother!!

The story behind this photo was funny. After my rounds of camwhoring.. I sat beside the bdae boy and he said to me: I also.... want to take photo le.... Can i take photo with all the gals....? I stood up and made the gals crowd around him.. Feeling lucky or tipsy dude? Haha..

Notice the background?? We had another group of friends whom we do not know of to join in the fun.. Ha.. And notice the Bdae boy?? Hahaha.And he is gone... This just means that it was a total success! LOL..

Friday: Break In Between Exams

2008-04-27T17:38:00.015+08:00

Exams are almost over.. 2 more papers to go! Dont know how i will fair for this semester.. All I know is my GPA will be badly (real bad) affected. Ha.. Oh well i tell myself not to worry bout it for what is done is done.. Next sem just have to get all As to push it back up! :)

Took a break before the next paper (law)... Very dry subject.. Prefer Commercial Law than Investment Law.. Anyways, Clarence, Pei Yu, Pamela, Jian Hua, Yvonne and myself decided to take a break since the next paper is in a week time. :)

I went home after exams to catch on my sleep while the rest hang out somewhere..( I didnt sleep for the whole day doing last minute mugging.. Ha.) and to meet the rest at 7pm later. But i woke up at 830pm.. Haha.. So i missed catching movie with them.. Lucky me it was a lame Superhero movie that i missed.. :P

Called them up and told them not to go home coz im bored at home and im coming down to join them even though im still sleepy. :P

This was what we did....

From Left to Right: Me, Clarence and Jian Hua
From Left to Right : Yvonne, Pamela and Pei Yu
And We went to Jian Hua and Yvonne's hotel room at Swissotel: Nice View eh?
Jian Hua's Night Job: Most Wanted Pervert on The Prawl

Name: Jian Hua (by Day) Melvin by (Night)

Last Seen Location: Swissotel, Singapore

Hotspot Location: Malaysia

Poor me... got lacerated on my thumb while trying to open the first bottle using a key as we do not have bottle opener.. The cut was deep but not so painful (until when i was kayaking the next day the wound open up and start bleeding again.. Damn pain..) It was a success though.. Then the second bottle.......
It was a success too! But at the cost of my index finger.. Ha.. The other bottles Pei Yu took over me and opened all without a scratch!! -_-"
While i was busy putting band aids on my finger, Clarence begin to fall asleep.. And i disturbed him knowing he was already asleep i asked: "Hey dude you asleep? *nudge*nudge* Hey dude you asleep already? *nudge*nudge* once more.. Lol..
Then we played a few rounds of bridge and i won all the games! Haha.. Pei Yu got bored i think and took a few winks... And so i stopped playing too and took the above and below. :)
Im still hyped up but everyone's falling asleep.. So i woke everyone up and make them go home.. Haha.. I got training in a few hours time anyways.. Heh..

Cant wait to celebrate the April Babies Birthday gathering after exams!! Timbre Timbre! Where is my present?? Ha..

17th Apr 2008

2008-04-18T18:32:00.005+08:00

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The most memorable birthday so far!!

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It is here...

2008-04-16T02:46:00.006+08:00

Looking For The Solitude, gazing underneath the stars..

Searching For The Peace, hearing the waves break..

Seeking The Tranquility, enjoying the breeze..

Finding The Calmness, away from it all..

On the heavy sand, I will rest my feet..

Its a time, the place, i think i need..

Thoughts, feelings, memories, my wish..

It is here... The place to be..

Again.

When The School Term Ends...

2008-04-13T19:28:00.010+08:00

School term has ended and im gonna miss the fun aside from all the lectures and studying.. Ha..
Now in less than 2weeks, the semestral exam will start! Better get down to business! Been a King at Procastinating nowadays.. And peeps, whether you guys are from NTU, NUS, SMU, some other private college and of coz SIM (ha).. Study hard! All the Best! Gambatte! ---> I recently only learn this word :P

Oh and i think i put them pictures here for everyone to see the fun in between lectures we had.. =D People can call it whatever they want about us clique.. But thats us, being ourselves.. Hah.. Oh of coz not forgetting the kayaking fun i had----> thats why im dark!! Photos for kayaking are updated at http://www.simcanoeingclub.blogspot.com/.. My frequent blog viewers can visit that site ya..

Its like my another blogging site maintained by me!! Ha.. Thats y you see the similarities.. :P

Last day of school, me and clara decided to make those for everyone!! Cool or act cute up to you? Its the thought that counts!

Support the Yellow Ribbon Project!

The two princesses and the stepmother.. LOL Who is the stepmother??

What's with the face dude? Haha..

Oh y brown day?? In support of Nizam for being tanner every single day.. Cheers!!

Im the photographer.. I find out that i got only one red top!! And its being washed! Sad.

The begining of Monday Blues.. Was it monday?? Lol

Smiling on a bluey day..

After that blue day, we had a hip hop poser party.. :D

And off to another party we go.. Notice im still in the same tee? Been out the whole freaking day!

The Extra ME!!!! I look good... Haha!!

The Blue day finally ends.. Damn tired but we had fun!!

Another Day arrives, and its all white

Ok.. Forced to smile here.. Yeah but i do want to be happy.. Its tiring to just emo.. :P

In support of the Breast Cancer Foundation. Remember to do regular check ups ladies!!

Where we looking at? Whats up? literally.. Act cute xia..

Who says pink is gay? Haha.. A bit la but not really wat.. Shallow minded people thinks so..

Black, damn garang when the whole bunch of us sit in the lecture theatre in a row and everyone is staring.. Haha..

An AriesThis Month

2008-04-10T11:21:00.002+08:00

Why am i reading up horoscopes all of the sudden? Coz my BDAE is coming!! Lol..

Okok, the amusing thing is... They are telling me stuff im already doing even before i read them.. lol.. Hmm what a coincidence.. Nrulz say its too much of a coincidence.. Lol..

Here what it says from Friendster horoscopes bout Aries:

It's okay if your patience is running thin with a flighty friend -- and it's perfectly okay to take a break from spending time with them. Relationships go through phases, and it's just not healthy to pretend that your feelings for someone else never go through changes. Right now, you need to clear up your emotions about this person, and get your distance. Figure out what they add to your life -- and figure out if you are adding anything to theirs. Are you just friends out of habit?

The 9th..

2008-04-06T15:28:00.006+08:00

For the month of April
Love highlight: Venus moves into Aries on April 6. This planetary movement along with the new moon in your sign on the same day signifies a high energy period and very a significant time in your love life. Mercury is also in Aries from the 3rd till the 17th, so communications of the heart will not be easily put aside. If you’re in a relationship, by the end of the month around the third week, deep issues of past hurts will need to be dealt with before continuing.

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Something i came across accidentally while was browsing through the net.. Not that i believe in it.. But what is said, is just so coincidental.... Even the stars agree.. Today signifies a significant time in my love life? It just keeps going in circles until dealt with? How to?

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Guess things will never ever be the same again.. Im tired very tired.. I ve stopped trying.. Now, no one is doing anything.... I miss the past.. Its exhausting..

Brick says I should be happy and spare no time for depressing thoughts, it doesnt change anything.. I should enjoy myself!

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Project fever ends... Exams starting.. But i need to get my engine started and not let my mind wonder... Too far...

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At least after today and after exams.. Then i will enjoy myself.. LOL

I'll be 23... And I only have one wish...

2008-03-29T13:48:00.008+08:00

Soon and amazingly im turning 23.. These days i just feel like an undead. Just dont feel like doing anything. Aimless. Hopeless. Canoeing, running and gym is the only thing that makes me feel alive.

I am ready but wont be stagnant forever. Wont always be waiting and living in regrets.

I dont know what else i can do. I dont know what else to say.

An emo song for an emo 23 year old.

- This song says everything.. Nuff said -

23

I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

(Repeat x2)

Villa Bali

2008-03-22T00:47:00.002+08:00

Day 1: Arrival At Night

Day 2: Nyepi (Silent Night) Everyone have to stay in doors all throughout the day.

Day 3: Sightseeing

Day 4: More Sightseeing

Day 5: Dolphin Watch

Last Day....

The Life and Times of an Actor

2008-03-20T23:50:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you just have to put up an act or tell a lie(s). Not for selfish reasons but for selfless reasons you do it. So that others will not worry for you or even be angry at you. You just want them to be happy, irregardless of how you feel.

And when you cant hide it, you resort to isolation..

It is just so tiring , hard being an actor.. But the show has to go on for you do not want to lose everything after all the tremendous effort that you have put in to make sure things are in place..

I hv to keep trying harder and in time things might just change..............

Fuck it.. ha..

Seperate Life - Phil Collins

2008-03-17T01:03:00.007+08:00

A friend of mine send me this song and asked me to listen to it coz she say the lyrics is very meaningful.. Ha.. Emo girl exchaning songs with Emo boy..

You called me from the room in your hotel
All full of romance for someone that you met
And telling me how sorry you were, leaving so soon
And that you miss me sometimes when you’re alone in your room
Do I feel lonely too?

You have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
We can’t go on just holding on to time
Now that we’re living separate lives

Well I held on to not let you go
And if you lost your love for me, well you never let it show
There was no way to compromise
So now we’re living (living)Separate lives

Ooh, it’s so typical, love leads to isolation
So you build that wall (build that wall)
Yes, you build that wall (build that wall)
And you make it stronger

Well you have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
Some day I might (I might) find myself looking in your eyes
But for now, we’ll go on living separate lives
Yes for now, we’ll go on living separate lives

Separate lives

七年

Truth or Dare? Choose Dare And I Can't Face The Truth

2008-03-14T19:39:00.006+08:00

I wished upon a star yesterday night.. lol
It was kinda granted.. But it is still far from what it is..
Ha..

I want it... I really do...
I would give up the whole world just for it to happen...
But I want it to be right..
I want it to be meaningful..
I want it to be something that is very special..

But all i can do right now is to only dream..
Only in my dreams will it happen..
The way i want it to be...

Will it ever really happen?
Will i ever get the chance again?
This time do it right?
I can only wish for it to be so..
Every minute and everyday of my life..
Silently i pray for that day..
For one more chance.....

why is it so hard?

2008-03-02T13:54:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i just hate it when Lib is right.. Being single is better..

We've been talking bout love, being single, emo, who is attached and who is not, this gal, that gal, who is a loser and many more around those subject.

Cant help it but some times i do think that love is a restriction. A bane that only causes you so much pain... Why is it so hard.................

But nvr give up...

What is real and just a dream?

2008-02-23T05:17:00.008+08:00

Woke up in the middle of the night and in less than an hour i have to get ready to go for training.. Cant fall asleep with these crazy thoughts running through my mind and the music playing on the laptop, between the beautiful dream that I just had and what is the reality. And so i began blogging this interesting thoughts i had in mind. Where am i but somewhere in between.

You know the feeling when you are stuck in between two things? You wish to just have a few hours on your own to sort things out but your mind just could not stop racing, you will start walking around aimlessy.. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.

You wish that you will never have to face such a situation.. But no matter what, no matter where you hide, it just come right back into your face. You just cant stand still, you are so unsturdy. Things are over your head but at the same time, its underneath your feet. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.

You eagerly wait for tonight to arrive. And you could not be any happier when it arrives. Then you begin to just hope that tomorrow will come right away. To start a brand new day. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.

You always think that by sleeping it through, it will be the best thing to do and by the next day, everything will be back to the way that it was. You wish that it would just be that easy. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.

Tomorrow comes, you still wait for the night but wish it will be the next day again. You dont wish for this to happen to you over and over again.. But you just cant get enough of it. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.

You hoped to be caught out of where you fell in. You hoped you wont have to fall down at their feet again. You know that you just dont need this. They dont need it too. But you just dont want to let go and run away from it. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.

You wish only for the dream to be reality, reality to be a dream. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.....

Valentine

2008-02-11T00:03:00.000+08:00

When you go about doing your daily activities, everything you do reminds you of him/her.

When you buy yourself bits and pieces that you think you wanted and you still feel that you have something that is still missing at the end of the day. That is…

When you realised that what you are actually missing is him/her not the materiality in life.

When you waited for so long and you are still waiting. You find yourself never get tired of waiting and still patiently, you wait.

When you hate his/her attitude, but it is because of that attitude, you learn to love it more and more than you hate. And….

When that happens, you know that that is what you want to live with, not otherwise.

When even you are at your busiest moments you think about him/her.

When you are about to fall asleep, the last few moments that was on your mind is him/her.

When you are in your deepest of all sleeps, you dream of him/her.

When you wake up in the morning finding out it is only a dream. You sit in front of the mirror and look at yourself with something that you hold tightly in your hands. That is…

When you wish that you were still dreaming.

When you are wishing for it, you smile at your own reflection for you know that…

When night falls you will be dreaming of him/her again.

When it is night, and the bed is too big for one, you hold on tightly onto the very first thing that he/she has ever given to you to accompany you to sleep.

When you were awoken from your sleep and found it missing from your grasp, you rummage through your bed to look for it before going back into a deep slumber.

When this happens to you, you begin to question why do you feel this way.

When this happens to you, you hate this feeling but at the same time you desire it.

When this happens to you, you begin to question yourself if you are going crazy.

When you questioned yourself this, you found out that you are really crazy.

When you also find that this is what true love is.. Trust me that this is…

When you know you are crazy in love…….

To all those crazy people out there:

-_HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY_-

7th - my favourite number?

2008-02-06T03:04:00.000+08:00

I guess i havent been myself all these while.. Always keeping things to myself, always hiding away from everyone who were once close to me.. Maybe i just want to be alone.. Im a changed person now, that I've forgotten that i have great friends who always have my back.

Im damn ****ing touched by what the jackassess did for me.. Talib the leader of them Jackassess,i think, knowing that i have not been myself for the past few months, devised a plan to cheer me up. Thanks to Kelvin my manager at work also, who made it all happen..

Really unexpected la.. Haha.. Really cheered me up!! Cant thank them enough man... Speechless.. I have been eyeing that watch for some time and intended to get it for myself so as to make myself happy, to indulge.. Weird but i just love to look at watches of different designs.. Anyways, the jackassess made me more than just that by surprising me with the watch. Just got it an hour ago.. Ha. This Puma timepiece is expensive la!

I noe my friends cant stand me being this way, emoing, always the gloomy face, keeping quiet, low self confidence, get annoyed easily.. I barked at my friends a few times without even realising it.. you people noe who you are.. Really sorry, i didnt realised i did it.. I actually dun like it too but cant help it.. Ha.. Will try my best to tone all these shit down.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL

The 6th

2008-01-06T15:23:00.000+08:00

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Song lyrics | Bukan Diriku lyrics

Setelah kupahami
(I finally understand)
Ku bukan yang terbaik
(That im not the best)
Yang ada di hatimu
(There is in your heart)
Tak dapat kusangsikan
(There is no doubt that)
Ternyata dirinyalah
(Apparently it is him)
Yang mengerti kamu
(Who understands you)
Bukanlah diriku
(It is not me)

Kini maafkanlah aku
(Now please forgive me)
Bila ku menjadi bisu
(When i keep silent)
Kepada dirimu
(Towards you)

Bukan santunku terbungkam
Its not that my manners disappears)
Hanya hatiku berbatas
(Its my heart has drawn a boundary)
Tuk mengerti kamu
(To understand you)
Maafkanlah aku
(Please forgive me)

Walau kumasih mencintaimu
(Even though I still love you)
Kuharus meninggalkanmu
(I have to leave you)
Kuharus melupakanmu
(I have to forget you)
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Although my heart is attached to you)
Nurani membutuhkanmu
(This feelings is clouding you)
Kuharus merelakanmu
(I have to let you go)

Dan hanyalah dirimu
(And it is only you)
Yang mampu memahamiku
(Who is able to discern my feelings)
Yang dapat mengerti aku
(Who can understand me)

Ternyata dirinyalah
(Apparently it is him)
Yang sanggup menyanjungmu
(Who is willing to flatter you)
Yang ramah menyentuhmu
(Who is has a kind touch for you)
Bukanlah diriku
(It is not me)

Walau kumasih mencintaimu
(Even though I still love you)
Kuharus meninggalkanmu
(I have to leave you)
Kuharus melupakanmu
(I have to forget you)
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Although my heart is attached to you)
Nurani membutuhkanmu
(This feelings is clouding you)
Kuharus merelakanmu
(I have to let you go)

My 100th Post Anniversary: FATE

2008-01-03T03:21:00.000+08:00

Yeap this is my 100th post of my blog. And its just in time to also say good bye to 2007 no matter how hard it is for me. I still have to say good bye for the greater good. Will miss 2007 alot.. And 7 being my favourite number... Still i have to try to say good bye.

Oh well for my 100th post. So happens i also want to write on something that is bugging me. That im so furious about after i read that particular sentence. "Fate play games."

What is Fate? What is your definition of it?

Fate and destiny are two similar words. I believe that certain things are suppose to happen in our lives. There are a few things that are meant to happen like you are fated to grow old or fated to study and get a job. It is something that must happen.

However, most of the time, the rest of your life is for you to make your own choices. What field of studies you want to take? What job you wan to do? Do things what you think is right for you. It is like you having to face examinations in your life. You can’t blame fate for failing or you doing poorly in your exams. You are the one who made the choice whether or not to study and pass with flying colours.

FATE ONLY TAKES YOU THAT FAR AND IT IS UP TO YOU TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.

If I want to sit on THAT chair it has nothing to do with fate or destiny. If you want to eat chocolate ice-cream instead of strawberry, again it's not fate or destiny, it is just something that you felt like at the time.

As a result I believe that Fate is for cowards, those too weak to determine their own destiny. FATE DON’T PLAY GAMES WITH US. We are the ones playing our own games with our minds. We are our own architect who creates our own fate every day that we live.

That doesn’t mean I don’t believe in God’s will and the fate he brings us. Only certain events are supposed to happen, usually things to learn from. When you start straying from those events (or the path), things tend to happen to push you back in that direction again. But still, as an example, even though you are born poor, you can still do something about it and improve your fate.

My stand is that FATE IS A MISCONCEPTION, IT IS A COVER UP FOR THE FACT THAT YOU DON’T HAVE CONTROL OVER YOUR OWN LIFE.

Get a life and get in control! And learn to love yourself first not for others.

Year End Vacation Trip Part 1 2007

2007-12-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

Just got back from a Family Vacation Roadtrip to Desaru, KL, Genting and Bukit Tinggi.. It was great! We had first a total of 5 vehicle convoy which later in Genting we had 2 more joining.. We had races on the expressways driving at fast speeds then when we got back sg, there is no kick travelling at only 80km/hr.. We drove at more than twice the sg speed limits! Haha..

In Desaru, there was ppl surfing coz of the huge monsoon waves in December. A sight i never seen before till that day.. Maybe one day i would wan to try ride the waves.

Went Genting in just my berms and t shirt with only another pair of berms and tshirt.. Yeah Yeah.. I have to spray lotsa perfume on me everyday.. lol.. i got no sweater or anything prepared for it was an impromptu decision to go for a roadtrip on Hari Raya Haji.. Weather was cold and to make it worst it rained on some days.. But i survived.. hah..

Then went to this place with nice scenery called Bukit Tinggi another mountainous area somewhere nearby Genting.. Made a wish at the wishing well by taking a coin out from it instead of putting one in.. HAHA.. Hope one day it will come true though.. Then there was this house there made of real ginger bread just like the house in the fairy tales.. And i took a bite at the house.. Taste like cinnamon more than like ginger.. Hah.. There is also a Japanese Garden with chalets in it. The chalet cost RM$5000!!

Well here are the photos taken with only my handphone.. And it turn quite good..

Desaru - KL

Genting Highlands

Bukit Tinggi

Designs, Getaways and more Getaways

2007-12-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

Wat do you guys think of these two designs for Student Council Logo? Designed them myself ;P

Alrights thats all for today.. Wont be back in sg until the 22nd.. Going for holiday trip with family and relatives in KL, Genting and some other places.. Been a very long time since we have done that.. 5 vehicle convoy.. Its gonna be damn fun!! Then 26th will make another trip to KL with frens! Will update again wen im back.. Finally a getaway much needed..