To be continued...

Some people just cannot get enough of talking. Rambling on and on about what they are going to do and what is going to happen, who, what and how. They just ain't got nothing to say or just talk a lot to seek attention. An empty barrel or vessel makes the most noise. Irritatingly noisy. All talk no action.

Do not get me wrong. I like people who talks a lot but there is a limit to where people can stand to the noise. If your noisy and funny that is a totally different case. That is somewhat entertaining. It is if you are just plain noisy and full of it, ahh... you are just plain asking for it.

Lets just give a classic example. IF you are Mr A-Z(its just a made up name) who say we should do a particular thing and this is how we should go about doing it but at the end of all that talk, you backed out, and i have to do it for you. Then just go find yourself a spider to play with. :D

The human mind works in wondrous ways and it can do anything it wants to. But this would be true only if it has the unwavering strength of determination, of the certitude to reach the goal it has chosen for itself, of the freedom of choice it exercises in deciding the kind of life it wants to pursue.

What others might say to you will not hamper your decision, the dogged willpower; will take you far than what people predicted it will be. You will not succumb to defeat. You will carry on living. With faith in God and confidence in yourself, and with strong determination, you can achieve the impossible.

I have seen that power of the human mind with my very own two eyes. The person being is my Grandmother.

Almost 3 years ago, she had a bad fall and fractured her back and with old age catching up to her, her body was overtaken by stroke and pneumonia. But her mind is not at all clouded by the diseases her body is suffering. She has a mind of an energetic child trapped in a worn out shell. One can see it through the movements of her eyes scanning the area that surrounds her.

Doctors, two years ago, gave her only days. And 3 days ago, gave her a day or two. The indications of the body said so. However yesterday, my Grandmother undertook a rapidly tremendous recovery and she was able to go home. The mind says no.

I am not sure what she is fighting for. Is she waiting for something or someone? I wish I can read her hand signals, I wish she would say something.

However, one thing I know is that her spiritedness, determination to go on living, mind over body really is admirable. Definitely a tough fighter.

With Admiration and Love,

Nizam

Today saw a couple of things and it made me think a lot about Being Alive, Living and Life itself.

LESSON ONE

Was walking my way to Paradiz to meet one of my buddies. I was already late and there was an enormous human traffic around. While I was approaching the traffic light across Rendezvous Hotel, saw a partially blind Man crossing the road amongst the large crowd heading towards my direction. The Man was apparently having difficulties in seeing his way around and the surroundings, full of construction work made it even worst for him.

It strikes me, when I see the helpless man struggling his way through amongst the masses. “Is everyone else blind as well? But they seemed to find their way comparatively fast around the helpless Man.”

The thought of assimilating just to blend in with the rest crossed my mind as well. However when I crossed path with the Man, I do not know what came over me, I naturally moved over and said “Uncle let me help. Where are you heading to?” and guided him towards the route to the bus stop. Halfway through I asked him if he is okay by himself and he assured me of it. I left him and hurried to meet my friend. Before I turn into the corner, I looked backed to check up on him. Part of me says “Go back and help him all the way until the bus stop.” and the other one says “You are late, hurry up.” I opt for my second option….

While walking towards my friend, I did some thinking.

Are everyone really blinded to have that little bit of compassion in their heart?
Or they actually see what is going on but not sure if they should help the Man?
It feels odd because everyone around ain’t doing anything? Is it because he is a stranger? You have no time and rushing to go somewhere? Just plain ignorant, a heart of stone?

Whatever the reasons are, humans are quick to judge others and I just did that as in the above paragraphs. I got home and reflect before writing this entry; I am actually the same as everyone else. I did help him out. But before that, I asked myself several questions similar to those I mentioned above. Adding on to that, I opt for the 2nd option didn’t I?

Everyone is blind to a certain extend and I am in no position to judge others. But then again I am after all a human being.. Complicated huh.. That's Life..


LESSON TWO

Still in town, had dinner with my buddy at basement level of PS after looking for gifts when “CRASH!!!” and “SHATTER!!” The glass panel of the railings on the floor above fell onto the floor we are on, at the escalator. What was worst, the glass panel hit someone right on his head and what was a sheet of glass now became thousands of ice cubes scattered everywhere even up till my feet where I was eating. Just like the movies only this was for real. Everything happened so fast.

The victim was still able to walk normally as if nothing had happened. And he appeared to be normal as well, despite parts of his shirt was torn. But then he started bleeding on his arms and head. The impact that hit him was so fast for his body to react to the pain and partly because he was in a shock. He didn’t know that there is actually a hole in his head!! Actually reminds me of a case I attended to some time back - confidential-.

Had the urge to leave my seat and attend to the victim like how I used to. But then, I remained seated as already people are helping out taking out their First Aid Boxes from their shops. Cleaners came rushing in to clear the bits and pieces of ‘ice cubes’ on the floor and cordon off the area.

Seeing them in action somewhat made me proud to be a Singaporean. Proud of SCDF in carrying out Public Education. Cheers to all!! :D

And oh Lesson Learnt in One actually applies here too.. Concept is the same. Just a different scenario. ;X

But what strikes me most here was how unpredictable life can be. One moment you were cruising down the escalator and the next you… YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT HIT YOU!!!

Seeing that, your whole life flashes past you and in an instant all the “What Ifs” in life came into your mind.

What if it was something bigger and heavier?! What if the glass weren’t tampered and instead of ice cubes you get splinters?! What if it was me there?! And if you are lucky you might see another day….

Being in his shoes, you can roughly tell what he is thinking “Why it is me out of all the thousands who took the escalator?” – Only He has the answer.

Life is fragile not short. Don't stop Living.

And oh!!~ Watch out for falling glass panels when taking the escalator!! Take care of yourselves!! Stay Alive :D


Live Strong,

Nizam

5km run accomplished. Supposed to run at 9pm but decided to snooze my way first the first thing I got home from school. Damn slack ah. Run at 2330hrs

Next sub- objective: To complete 8km or 40mins run. What is the main objective you ask? Haha…..

Today received anonymous calls from some private number a few times at one go. The first time I said something civil: Hello, who is this? There is something wrong with your phone, I cant hear you. The third time, I invited my friends to sing some songs and amuse the bugger on the other line and I just let it run since I got free incoming. Wanted to say F off the fourth time but didn’t receive any. I abominate these pranksters. Why bother calling in the first place.

Scared the shit(LOL) out of a friend about something and he divulged to me where he concealed the skeleton that he has been keeping in his closet. If he dies i have to rid off all of the evidence. Damn disgusting. I am never going to go anywhere near it. Just too sordid to even imagine. Run run run!!

Runnin,

Nizam

Saturday

It was great spending time with my classmates on the hot saturday night. You guys know what i mean... The air conditioned was so F*@$ up.. Guess the place owes a lot of money and can’t afford to switch on the aircon. But hey SIM- RMIT rocks.. So many beautiful people to see!! So many outgoing ladies i met. Gals dressing up as Nurses, French/Chamber Maids, Stewardess... Kinky! Wini, Pam, Pei Yu and Clara didn't dress up for the occassion.. :( Lolz.. I had a fantastic time despite getting a bit of a headache due to the heat and crowd.

Talking about that, i do not know why i always feel like my head is whirling when I’m around a large group of people packed like sardines. Maybe it's the stuffiness? Lack of oxygen? Why can't i be like the rest enjoying themselves... Sighs.. But its ok, i always have my remedy if it happens. :D

Sunday

Woke up at 9am!!! It’s a FREAKING SUNDAY!!! What to do.. Stupid bio-clock and oh also because i was awoken by my dad loud Army regimental voice from the corridor outside our house. Non-stop, he was ranting like a machine gun while scrubbing the corridor with detergent. I got off the bed wash my face and unwisely look at what my dad is doing even though i know that if he is hot headed, everyone will get to feel his wrath. I had to go and get some for myself. What an idiot.. Lolz.. The neighbour's cat had peed somewhere along the corridor and it reeks of urine.. Early in the morning for all that..

I think it is somehow dominant in all male cats to leave their mark when there is rivalry around. How i know? Coz the neighbours cat is a bloody fat male mafia gangster and i have a cat of my own (my sis actually), also male, that just laze around the house and always got bullied. Actually i have 2 cats (the other female) and 3 fluffy kittens(dunnoe the gender). One big family. So that is how the (urine) male dominance for a territory theory arises. - I explained all these to my dad after getting a feel of his wrath, defending my cats. Haha..

Later during the day, went JB with parents though i do not want to.. But hey i got something in return if i followed - a pair of Levis specs and for cheaper than if i purchase in you know where Ritz(confirm his blood boiling already)!! Muahaha! But before that, i followed them to get the keys to our new house. I even got to choose my room before anyone else. :D Maybe one day ask all my friends to go there and laze around, go bbq or what since the green light is given by parents already. :)

Yup a well spent weekend indeed!! :D

Now gotta go upload photos of the bash from my hp to send to all my classmates .. Requests are coming in already.. Heh..

Kinda like blogging now..... BFF!!!

Signing out,

Nizam

First and foremost i would like to 'thank' Talib for this 'wonderful gift' he has given me. I was dumbfounded by it. What am i suppose to do with it? What am i suppose to write about? Is this what im going to do when i have my spare time? (i hope not lor..) But for Talib's sake and for all the other Jack Asses who have started blogging, its like an obligation as well for me to do it. Lets just put it in a positive manner; i won't feel left out (I actually can't think of any other reason that would make me feel that i should write entries) Sorry Talib.. Heh..

BUT as far as possible i will try to write at least an entry per month. OK? lolz..

And those whom have been added to my links especially Kin, I didnt give you that name ok just making sure you got that straight.. Your lovable Cuz gave it and i dunnoe how to change it.. Heh.. He "Kiampar" (a word that actually means he is asking for it)!! It's a word i learn from a NDU personnel.. Dun Play Play hor!! :P You can use that word on Irwank too ya.. It fits him perfectly!! LOLZ..

Ritz i will ask Lib how to add your link do not know how...


Damn... So Lib whose next? Does Pang and Sam has a blog? I dont think so... Wahaha.. I am evil..

Hope this entry comes up alright... I do not know how to go about doing this... Eh Lib since you create a blog for me do it up lah, the 'cosmetics' make it look nice? Thanks!! :D

Can i get to meet interesting girls thru blogging? Ask out for a date since im single? Can i?


Peace out,

Nizam

Hello people,

this blog is done up for Hairulnizam. This is Talib here. He'll start posting from the 2nd entry onwards. In the meantime, chiLL...


regards,
antimarx