Woke up in the middle of the night and in less than an hour i have to get ready to go for training.. Cant fall asleep with these crazy thoughts running through my mind and the music playing on the laptop, between the beautiful dream that I just had and what is the reality. And so i began blogging this interesting thoughts i had in mind. Where am i but somewhere in between.


You know the feeling when you are stuck in between two things? You wish to just have a few hours on your own to sort things out but your mind just could not stop racing, you will start walking around aimlessy.. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.


You wish that you will never have to face such a situation.. But no matter what, no matter where you hide, it just come right back into your face. You just cant stand still, you are so unsturdy. Things are over your head but at the same time, its underneath your feet. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.



You eagerly wait for tonight to arrive. And you could not be any happier when it arrives. Then you begin to just hope that tomorrow will come right away. To start a brand new day. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.

You always think that by sleeping it through, it will be the best thing to do and by the next day, everything will be back to the way that it was. You wish that it would just be that easy. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.

Tomorrow comes, you still wait for the night but wish it will be the next day again. You dont wish for this to happen to you over and over again.. But you just cant get enough of it. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.



You hoped to be caught out of where you fell in. You hoped you wont have to fall down at their feet again. You know that you just dont need this. They dont need it too. But you just dont want to let go and run away from it. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.


You wish only for the dream to be reality, reality to be a dream. You are stuck somewhere in between what is real and just a dream.....

When you go about doing your daily activities, everything you do reminds you of him/her.

When you buy yourself bits and pieces that you think you wanted and you still feel that you have something that is still missing at the end of the day. That is…

When you realised that what you are actually missing is him/her not the materiality in life.

When you waited for so long and you are still waiting. You find yourself never get tired of waiting and still patiently, you wait.

When you hate his/her attitude, but it is because of that attitude, you learn to love it more and more than you hate. And….

When that happens, you know that that is what you want to live with, not otherwise.

When even you are at your busiest moments you think about him/her.

When you are about to fall asleep, the last few moments that was on your mind is him/her.

When you are in your deepest of all sleeps, you dream of him/her.

When you wake up in the morning finding out it is only a dream. You sit in front of the mirror and look at yourself with something that you hold tightly in your hands. That is…

When you wish that you were still dreaming.

When you are wishing for it, you smile at your own reflection for you know that…

When night falls you will be dreaming of him/her again.

When it is night, and the bed is too big for one, you hold on tightly onto the very first thing that he/she has ever given to you to accompany you to sleep.

When you were awoken from your sleep and found it missing from your grasp, you rummage through your bed to look for it before going back into a deep slumber.

When this happens to you, you begin to question why do you feel this way.

When this happens to you, you hate this feeling but at the same time you desire it.

When this happens to you, you begin to question yourself if you are going crazy.

When you questioned yourself this, you found out that you are really crazy.

When you also find that this is what true love is.. Trust me that this is…

When you know you are crazy in love…….

To all those crazy people out there:

-_HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY_-

I guess i havent been myself all these while.. Always keeping things to myself, always hiding away from everyone who were once close to me.. Maybe i just want to be alone.. Im a changed person now, that I've forgotten that i have great friends who always have my back.

Im damn ****ing touched by what the jackassess did for me.. Talib the leader of them Jackassess,i think, knowing that i have not been myself for the past few months, devised a plan to cheer me up. Thanks to Kelvin my manager at work also, who made it all happen..

Really unexpected la.. Haha.. Really cheered me up!! Cant thank them enough man... Speechless.. I have been eyeing that watch for some time and intended to get it for myself so as to make myself happy, to indulge.. Weird but i just love to look at watches of different designs.. Anyways, the jackassess made me more than just that by surprising me with the watch. Just got it an hour ago.. Ha. This Puma timepiece is expensive la!




I noe my friends cant stand me being this way, emoing, always the gloomy face, keeping quiet, low self confidence, get annoyed easily.. I barked at my friends a few times without even realising it.. you people noe who you are.. Really sorry, i didnt realised i did it.. I actually dun like it too but cant help it.. Ha.. Will try my best to tone all these shit down.


HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL