- Lifehouse never fails to entertain me emotionally with their songs......

this time all I want is you
there is no one else who can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies, you take it all away
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

I try to make my way to you but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

don't give up on me yet, don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet, but don't let me stay here alone

this time all I want is you
there is no one else who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

If only they have karaoke of their songs....
Will always be a fav band of mine.. But sux.. I cant find my CD collections of them..
Wonder whats their new album is like.. hmmm..

Something interesting this friend of mine told me on msn... His logic on habit or love.. Twisted? Come to think bout it it makes a bit of sense, even on the rebound part.. though it may seem selfish.. lol.. maybe he had just gotten out of love and not habit thats y he saying them.. haha

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t---b says:
Love is when you break up, you can adjust back to how life is like for you.

t---b says:
even while you were in the relationship, im pretty sure when you're in a relationship, you dont neglect EVERYTHING else

t---b says:
you still go out with friends etc.

t---b says:
but sometimes, when you spend so much time with your gf that it becomes a habit

t---b says:
and when you break up, you find it hard to do anything else because of that habit

t---b says:
you feel jittery and all

t---b says:
they cling cling cling cuz they cant adjust. thats habit.

t---b says:
but if its love, you can pretty much adjust with your life

t---b says:
though you're still sad about losing her, you can adjust back to living.

t---b says:
and how you kick a habit?

t---b says:
you get into a new one

t---b says:
lol

t---b says:
i.e rebound

woke up with a throbbing headache..
found a letter from sch..
didnt do as i expected for my exams..
damn it...

Had a suicidal fun time! ha.. Too bad the Duck was not there...



Will be away.. Wont be back blogging till a few days time..
N yes noni i will take your advice.. I will try stop being a nice guy coz being too nice as you said ppl take advantage of that.. Therefore, everyone can rot and die while waiting for the next update.. :D

Heart says stay.

Head says stay... away.

Heart says do anything, something.

Head says do nothing.

Heart wants to meet.

Head wants to only observe.

Heart says It still cares.

Head says It no longers give a damn bout you.

Heart says goodbye, be safe, take care and have a good time there.

Head says after what had been put through, why bother.

Heart says dont listen to head.

Head says dont listen to heart.

The heart or the head? Both..

Was walking around, without any particular destination in mind.. Then heard this loud commotion of aunties at the bus stop even with my earpiece on. They were like "ching ching mo bo sho shing bei ah and so on, followed by na bei, wei woi uncle? oi oi oi then again "ching shing chong mo bo sho ah bei bla bla kapoot (- damn irritating xia) in some harsh dialect that i only can understand na bei..

Despite my mind being occupied, i decided to turn around and look at what was the fuss all about and i saw an indian old man with the whole of his left arm stuck in between the doors of the sbs bus.

I stood rooted to the ground for a moment in disbelief, i thought they were shooting a movie or something.. Then my next immediate action was to run to help the poor man being dragged (thanks to scdf training i guess..) The aunties were still ching shing shong away sitting down looking at the feat while trying to get the driver's attention. And then was like ahh~ ah- boy bla bla and uncle ok ok? wen the uncle was out of danger. In my mind it goes "you aunties call him uncle? You aunties are not much younger xia.." Ha.

Even after the whole thing was done and the old man was fine on the outside, yeap checked for signs of broken bones and consciousness.. He is ok.. Hope he is.. And the aunties were still shing shong shong away.. Bloody hell drama over still so noisy.. So i walked away..

Ended up at a particularly familiar place at the kallang riverside park from esplanade... A place where i can find solitude,peace and tranquility, a place where i have been sitting reminiscing and thinking for some time now and then, when the mood and time is right.. Today was just right....

And it has a great view too.. Been aspiring to stay there for some time now too.. Photo from camera phone, not so nice...

On my way home, looked outside the window, everything was dark. I could see my own face reflected against it. "what’s wrong with a face like mine? maybe Im just tired and need more sleep. Mum always say you look older if you sleep less.. Ha..

And the highways to me are one lonely place where your body is moving with the motion in the car, your heart is left behind somewhere in the darkness and the nerves that hold the two together get pulled harder and harder. Further and tighter that it feels like its going to snap any moment. Just by looking out the window of the cab.

A mind that thinks too much...

Its finally out the sch project i helped out pang (sern yong) with.. Title is My Story but its not my story, im just acting it out. Dun think i did a good job as the lead.. An emo productions presents:



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Have been looking forward for this day,and now that it finally arrives, i dont know what to make out of it anymore.. I always hoped things would be different.. If i could just have one more day.. Hah..
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if i can start all over again
i wish i had never appeared in your life
But its weird that through the sadness
im kind of glad that it happened


where are the rainbows please tell me
can i have my wishes back
why is the sky so quiet
the grey clouds are all above me


do you have a mask please give one to me
so you wont recognise me if we ever meet
comfort won’t come if we keep going in circles
perhaps time is a kind of antidote
and also a poison i’m taking in now


how can i fall asleep without seeing your smile
your image is so close yet i can’t hug you
you can still turn without me around
and i can still walk without a reason to

you wanted to leave, i know it is easy
you said dependence is whats obstructing us
even if we separate, can you not confiscate my love
i’ll only understand when it ends, take it that way


do you have a mask please give one to me
so you wont recognise me if we ever meet
comfort won’t come if we keep going in circles
perhaps time is a kind of antidote
and also a poison i’m taking in now


how can i fall asleep without seeing your smile
your image is so close yet i can’t hug you
you can still turn without me around
and i can still walk without a reason to


you wanted to leave, i know it is easy
you said dependence is whats obstructing us
even if we separate, can you not confiscate my love
i’ll only understand when it ends, take it that way


without seeing your smile its hard to fall asleep
your image is so close yet i can’t hug you
without the earth the sun will still rotate
without a reason i can still walk away
comfort won’t come if we talk about it too much
you wanted to leave,i know its easy
so please return to me my heart you confiscated
perhaps time is a kind of antidote
and also a poison i’m taking in now

Translation from a song pang send me.. Everyone's joining the emo club..

The higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment.

"I guess I finally comprehended what the statement meant.... Sometimes the disappointment may be tolerable but the heart wrenching feeling that accompanies it simply takes the cake... At times, I wonder why I allowed myself to be maneuvered into such a position even though I knew the chances were close to non-existent..."

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A similar feeling.. Hah.. Im wondering myself as well why i do the things i did since i know im not worth it.. And the feeling of wanting to be around but at the same time wanting to just go away... Is it even logical?

To the friend thats been going thru this: I dun noe wat to say dude.. If u hv found a reason tell me

What should i do??
I thought that iam strong enough to deal with this downfall..
Iam only fooling myself..
Damn it..
Understand...