An Inspirational Video

I would like to share with everyone a video a certain someone asked me to watch to put me right back on track! Its quite inspiring i guess and the music.. Kinda have that strong determine sound to it.. Heh.. Well enjoy..





Thank you for the reminder to tell me to LOL -----> LEAD OUT LOUD! =D

Missing My C....... - A Realisation

I have been missing out on my trainings.. And some times when i train, i just lose my motivation.. Slowly but surely you see the numbers declining.. And your motivation to bring It to greater heights just runs dry.. Never did i mention this but its getting to me now..

Im just afraid of what might become of it in the future.... Really hope for a bright one.. But seeing the commitment levels right now... I can only say one thing: Disappointment.. I do see ppl winning in competitions and everything.. Cants say that im not proud.. Im more than just proud of everyone who puts in that effort. But really, its not all about winning.. Its more of the love for the sport.

We are all big in the name of fun, friends and family.. A bond we have that I have fallen in love with.. Whenever there is a social gathering or some sort.. Somehow or rather ppl would be free... But when there are trainings..... sighz... I always have to carry the burden of the disappointments in the turn ups.. Its always the same bunch of us.

But still I have to do my part.. I love doing what i have to do! I love my sport!

I still have to conduct.. "The show must go on! Not just for me but for those who are present as well and set to make a difference together." I always tell that to myself. Set out what i wanted to do despite the lost in motivation to do so.. I have to motivate everyone, to perform even though i just feel like giving up..

I still have to smile and make everyone who are present smile and enjoy the training.. At the end of the day we do enjoyed it no matter how small the numbers might be.. I felt relieved that i have done my job onto myself and to those who are around expecting me of my role.

I always asked myself why is this happening lately.. What is going on?

Is the training too tough on everyone these days? Cannot wake up in the morning? Am i too slack on the discipline or there is no discipline to begin with? If i increase the discipline level will everyone listen? Will it makes things worst off?

Other instituitions seems to be doing it.. Should i do the same? I see the trainings other instituitions are conducting.. While i was doing my own occasional trainings, some times I crossed path with groups of ppl doing their routine.. a couple of which i saw Everyone was shouting.. Everyone was counting.. One particular group i remembered asking for more of what is given to them.. I just watched in envy.....

Can It ever be like that some times, i wonder.. But using force is a negativity.. You cant force ppl to come against their own will.. How to do it without being seem negative about it? Sighz..

Maybe everyone is busy with other commitments? Exams are understood but there are those who have exams and do turn up.. Hmmm.. Maybe its the mentality that weekends are burnt and due to commitments in weekdays, thus wanting the weekends free..

Maybe we set off on the wrong foot on what our objectives were and its time to re write the past? Maybe everyone have different expectations and objectives.. How to make them come together as one then?

I have tried so many things.. I have come this far.. But some things seems to change while others dont..

Maybe what we need is a coach - an outsider, a father figure to instill back the motivation we need and make everyone move..

And the scariest of the thoughts that i always consider to be most likely..Maybe its just me? Have I done something wrong? Where did i go wrong? A high possibility..

Yesterday, i almost just felt like going home after a few rounds. I was at my limit. I had almost wanted to give up and instead opted out for long distance to think it through.. I didnt execute my role at all yesterday thinking about whats going on.. And truth be told the past few weeks, i havent been really executing my role.. No one realised what was going thru my mind. Maybe there was one who did notice.. Hah.. Guilt overwhelms me when he kept encouraging me on yesterday and so we encouraged each other along the way.. If not i would have gone home.. hah..

I asked myself why am i trying so hard? What do i really get out of it in the end? Have i failed everyone? Is everything crumbling? And those who were around me indirectly reminded me of what i set out to do when It was first formed. After some time, now then i finally realised that i once had a purpose for designing the back of the singlet that gives us our identity.. My dreams.. My objectives.. My motto for myself and onto others i hoped to pass on..

"I will never stop loving my sport that i have for since i was in primary school.. And will keep the enjoyment and the passion running, in others alike. It is not to be troubled with those who are not present but to be concerned more of those who are. Doing things not just for me but for everyone who have shown their interest in the sport as well. No matter how taxing things will be, the circumstances we are facing or difficult a situation might get, as a team no matter our numbers, together, we will
Against The Tide of Challenge, Paddle Forth!"

And saying thanks to those who reminded me of this is not enough. And now im back together to lead once again..

That WAS what i set out to do.. That IS what im going to do now!

Is He Really is Just Not That Into You? - The Exception, Not The Rule.

The starting of the movie reminded me of a real life story! I would want to share...

Remember how at the start the little girl was told by her mum that if a guy is mean to you means he likes you? Haha..

It happened to someone real close to me, whom i see everyday, whose name starts with N and ends with N as well.. Not to mentioned we share the same parents.. LOL

She met this unlikely guy when they were in primary school! And the guy always teased the girl and picked on her or at times bully her. It was hilariously cute at how the guy reacted to liking her.

There was this one particular incident i remember she telling me that someone poured drink over someone just for fun.. I think its the guy who did it.. Hahaha.. Just for fun!! What a weird way to tell her you like her... Hahaha!

Then there was even this diary or the so called biodata profiler thingy.. Those things we used to write about our names, DOB, likes, dislikes etc.... And then we pass around to all our classmates and friends for them to write so that everyone can remain in contact with each other??

Where we wrote poems, riddles, our secret crush and personalise our biodata page?? We used different coloured pens and markers, showing of our creativity and artistic talent (if there was any) Haha.

Remember those younger days of ours?? It was like THE Facebook or Frienster before the Internet age really comes into play!! Damn those were the days!!!

*Reminiscing*

So ya anyway this guy, he still keeps the book with him!! (I dont know where mine went to.. =p)
And in the book was prove of his monkey love to the girl and poems after poems written by his friend teasing him with the girl..

While i was reading it, i laughed my ass off! Some of the poems seems to be crude for a young teenager.. In a way it was cute and romantic to keep something for so long...

And eventually as if by fate (keept long story short), they met up each other.. And thats how i know of this book of his.. Haha.. The prove of the love.. And now they are together after a long time of "courtship".. Haha...

One of those Rules broken.. This turns out to be the Exception..

Tune of the Month



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I was reminded by Ed of how lovely this music is.. Soundtrack from the Notebook - Our Love Can Do Miracles.

Its been awhile since i last listened to it. And the movie Notebook was one of the most interesting, touching romance movie i ever watched. Something everyone dreamt of love to be.. To grow old with someone right up till you are on your deathbed.. Something that everyone desires of having.. Something so sweet that it is unimaginable in reality.. Or is it?

I believe.. I believe that if one tries hard in a relationship and the love for each other is limitless, any hurdles can be overcome, any differences will be accepted. Love is not just bout loving someone or the companionship. Its about going through the hardships, bickering, accepting each other for who they are. If you Love that person, then your love for each other can do miracles! Now where is that other half miracle of mine? Are you here? Hahaha..

Thanks to Ed, i began to think about the person i was in the past.. The person that i had once forgotten. Now that i am reminded, kinda miss that old self of mine.. Hahaha!

Anyways, watched another romance flick yesterday with "Da Clique". This was just before i was reminded of the Notebook soundtrack.

"He's Just Not That Into You" was a fantastic movie to watch for those who are married, in love, just got out of love, looking for love, those who enjoys their bachelorhood or even if u r gays and lesbians. It doesnt matter as long as it revolves around Love.. hah..

It covers almost the whole expect about love in no matter wat status you are!! Be it if you are the RULE or the EXCEPTION! (hahaha! something that kept spining around the movie. i wont tell. so go watch!) It also becoz of this movie that inspired me to write wat i wrote before this.

A reminder to myself - to still believe and never give up!

And to Clarence to, there will always be other opportunities, there will be someone to like you bro! You just havent find the right one!

Investment test over.. Surprisingly not difficult, i tot i initially mite flung it. 3 more tests and 1 project to go~ Sian..

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