Soon and amazingly im turning 23.. These days i just feel like an undead. Just dont feel like doing anything. Aimless. Hopeless. Canoeing, running and gym is the only thing that makes me feel alive.


I am ready but wont be stagnant forever. Wont always be waiting and living in regrets.


I dont know what else i can do. I dont know what else to say.

An emo song for an emo 23 year old.

- This song says everything.. Nuff said -

23

I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets


You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

(Repeat x2)

Day 1: Arrival At Night




Day 2: Nyepi (Silent Night) Everyone have to stay in doors all throughout the day.




Day 3: Sightseeing




Day 4: More Sightseeing




Day 5: Dolphin Watch




Last Day....

Sometimes you just have to put up an act or tell a lie(s). Not for selfish reasons but for selfless reasons you do it. So that others will not worry for you or even be angry at you. You just want them to be happy, irregardless of how you feel.

And when you cant hide it, you resort to isolation..

It is just so tiring , hard being an actor.. But the show has to go on for you do not want to lose everything after all the tremendous effort that you have put in to make sure things are in place..

I hv to keep trying harder and in time things might just change..............

Fuck it.. ha..

A friend of mine send me this song and asked me to listen to it coz she say the lyrics is very meaningful.. Ha.. Emo girl exchaning songs with Emo boy..


You called me from the room in your hotel
All full of romance for someone that you met
And telling me how sorry you were, leaving so soon
And that you miss me sometimes when you’re alone in your room
Do I feel lonely too?

You have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
We can’t go on just holding on to time
Now that we’re living separate lives

Well I held on to not let you go
And if you lost your love for me, well you never let it show
There was no way to compromise
So now we’re living (living)Separate lives

Ooh, it’s so typical, love leads to isolation
So you build that wall (build that wall)
Yes, you build that wall (build that wall)
And you make it stronger

Well you have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
Some day I might (I might) find myself looking in your eyes
But for now, we’ll go on living separate lives
Yes for now, we’ll go on living separate lives

Separate lives

七年

I wished upon a star yesterday night.. lol
It was kinda granted.. But it is still far from what it is..
Ha..

I want it... I really do...
I would give up the whole world just for it to happen...
But I want it to be right..
I want it to be meaningful..
I want it to be something that is very special..

But all i can do right now is to only dream..
Only in my dreams will it happen..
The way i want it to be...

Will it ever really happen?
Will i ever get the chance again?
This time do it right?
I can only wish for it to be so..
Every minute and everyday of my life..
Silently i pray for that day..
For one more chance.....

Sometimes i just hate it when Lib is right.. Being single is better..

We've been talking bout love, being single, emo, who is attached and who is not, this gal, that gal, who is a loser and many more around those subject.

Cant help it but some times i do think that love is a restriction. A bane that only causes you so much pain... Why is it so hard.................

But nvr give up...