Sometimes you just have to put up an act or tell a lie(s). Not for selfish reasons but for selfless reasons you do it. So that others will not worry for you or even be angry at you. You just want them to be happy, irregardless of how you feel.

And when you cant hide it, you resort to isolation..

It is just so tiring , hard being an actor.. But the show has to go on for you do not want to lose everything after all the tremendous effort that you have put in to make sure things are in place..

I hv to keep trying harder and in time things might just change..............

Fuck it.. ha..